Jesus Isn't Decaf (By Naomi Meyers)

Hey! Weren’t those the guys? The ones the high priest and his posse were so enraged at. The ones who, just yesterday, had been marched into jail and locked away for preaching the gospel of Jesus Christ. Of course they were! But how did they get here? In the temple? Preaching? The very next morning? And why were the prison guards and officers in such an uproar to find them? Could it be? Was it possible? Had they escaped?

 It had been an eventful few days for the disciples. Even more eventful than usual. They expected the preaching and teaching, it was their mission. They were not surprised by the ever-increasing number of believers. They were not caught off guard at the amount of sick lining the streets waiting to be touched, prayed over, healed. They were completely unsurprised by the results of their compelling teachings of Jesus Christ, repentance, salvation, change. 

Even the opposition was expected. There was always opposition. They had been threatened, arrested, ordered not to preach Jesus. Nothing changed their determination. Last night they had been arrested and thrown in jail by a very angry, intensely jealous high priest of the Sadducee persuasion. Frustrating. Definitely sigh-worthy. Not surprising. 

The surprise had come in the middle of the night. Oppressive darkness cloaked their prison. Limiting visibility, but heightening other senses. Unpleasant odors of unwashed bodies hung in the air. Stench from improper facilities assailed their nostrils. Their stomachs churned and lurched. Every breath threatened to cause pointless gagging and retching. They had been able to force none of the prison rations down their throats. The conditions were horrific. 

Darkness seemed to magnify every sound. Scurrying mice. Running cockroaches. Rats fighting over a moldy bread crust. The soft snore of someone who had managed to doze off in this petri dish of germs and diseases. The slight clank of an opening lock brought them to full attention. The following swish of a gate swinging free had them instantly on their feet. The words of an angel telling the apostles to get up, get out, get on with their mission put wings on their heels. Exiting as soundlessly as possible, they breathed deeply of the unpolluted night air. The gate swung shut. The lock snicked into place. The guard never moved. The apostles’ mission would continue at daybreak.  

Groaning and burying their faces in silk-covered pillows, the high priest and his associates were not so eager to get to the temple. In retrospect, they probably wished they had been. They should have skipped the wakening gaze out the window, the extra cup of tea, the dawdling conundrum of which garment to wear. So certain were they that their enemies were locked away, they took the scenic route to work. It seems likely they wished they would have put more importance on temple attendance. Wished they had been the first to arrive that day. 

They weren’t. Apparently, they were quite late in their attendance. Skipping morning meeting entirely. They shouldn’t have done that. If they had attended that morning, they would have known what most of the town already knew. The guys they threw in prison last night weren’t there now. They had been sprung. But they hadn’t left town. They were teaching in the temple. Again. And people were listening. If the high priest, the Pharisees, the Sadducees, and any other cohorts of his had actually stopped to attend morning prayers, they would have known. They would have seen it. They likely wished they had. 

Sending for their prisoners, the council settled into trivial conversations as they awaited the fulfillment of their command. Except it didn’t come. Not the way they thought it would. The officers they sent to collect the accused returned. Empty-handed. There was not one apostle with them. Nor did they have any idea where they were. The prison was locked. The guards were in place. Nothing seemed disturbed or broken. No tunnels led from underneath the wall. No ropes went over it. There was no logical explanation, but the men who had been escorted there and locked inside were gone! 

Except they weren’t. At least not completely. They weren’t in the prison, but they hadn’t left town. They were still there. Still teaching. Still preaching. Right there. In the temple. For all and sundry to hear. The high priest and his cohorts were livid. 

Finally, succeeding in getting the apostles before him, the high priest asked, “Did you not hear us order you not to teach these things to our people? How were we unclear? Do you know who you are dealing with?” And the apostles, tongues ready with words from God, replied, “We are more interested in obeying God than people.” No matter what it cost them. No matter who they angered. No matter if they were rebuked, shunned, abused, or banished from polite society. Even if it came with a side of suffering, they had just one desire. Obey God. 

And they would suffer for it. Many on that council wanted to kill the apostles for denying their authority. Hearts cut to the quick with conviction, they wanted to eliminate these men and their teachings. Thankfully, Gamaliel had a different idea. Let God deal with them. If they were preaching heresy, God would certainly overthrow them. If they were preaching the truth, there was nothing anyone could do against it. Not the high priest. Not the council. Not the Sadducees or the Pharisees. Partially deterred, the council chose to flog them, order them not to preach Jesus, and send them on their way. 

They walked away…rejoicing. Rejoicing!? They had just endured arrest, imprisonment, a lopsided trial, and a beating. Their bodies bruised and bleeding. Their souls and lips rejoicing.  Why? Because they were already doing what James and Peter would later admonish their readers to do–count it all joy. Receive it with rejoicing. Count themselves blessed to be offered the honor of suffering for Christ’s sake, remembering that their eternal reward would be so much greater and last exponentially longer than any earthly suffering. (James 1:2-4; I Peter 4:12-14; Acts 5; Romans 8:18-21)

Pardon me while I sit here gobsmacked, trying to absorb this truth. Just last week, from this exact chair, I had a conversation with God about this very thing. Except I didn’t mention any rejoicing. It never crossed my mind. I spoke only of suffering for Jesus Christ. Right here in polite society. Right here in a culture that supposedly makes room for everyone. Right here in the land of the free.

It is easy to imagine the side of suffering served up to those in countries who impose religious constraints. Our minds quickly conjure the horrors of those who choose not to adhere to the spiritual status quo. Images of persecution, torture, and death flood our minds at the thought of those who choose to stand for Jesus in places where His name is forbidden. But we are not there. We are free to choose. We expect no ramifications for doing so. Then they come. 

Silently, they creep up on us. Exclusions from groups of people who choose actions and attitudes we cannot endorse. Rejections from potential employers because following Jesus means faithfulness at His house every Sunday. Friends who stop calling, stop texting, stop visiting when our choice to follow Jesus changes the way we talk, the things we watch, the places we visit. Shunning from fellow church attendees–yes, it will come from there, too–who have only a form of godliness, but lack the true Spirit of Christ. Social slaughtering by those who have chosen a lesser way, a broader path, a destitute eternity. Suffering for Jesus doesn’t always come in the form of a jail cell, a phony trial, or an undeserved beating. Sometimes it comes in a brush-off, an abandonment, a banishment. It is still suffering. It should still elicit the same result. Rejoicing. Because God sees your dedication to Him, the work you do in His name, the stand you take for His Word and He counts you worthy to suffer for His sake. (Matthew 24:9; I Peter 3:13-14; II Timothy 2:12; Romans 8:35-39)

Limping away from the scene of their flogging, bruised, bleeding, aching, possibly in need of medical attention, the apostles rejoiced. Their suffering might have been considered an insult by earthly measures, but it was the highest compliment of Heaven. God had seen them. Their endless work. Their fearless preaching. Their consistent witness. And He had honored them. Counted them worthy to suffer for the sake of Jesus Christ. They weren’t about to stop now. They kept right on preaching, every day, everywhere, to everyone who would listen. That flogging, as unpleasant as it had been, was not about to deter their mission. (Acts 5:41-42)

Would it deter yours? Would suffering in any form derail the mission God has sent you to do? I hope not. I hope you would never trade worldly acceptance for Heavenly exclusion. I hope you won’t trade friendship with the world for being a friend of God. I so deeply hope that in all the bells and whistles, distractions and promises of the world, there is still nothing worth more to you than your soul. And I pray, when you are served your side of suffering, you will find unspeakable joy in the knowledge that God counts you worthy to share with Jesus Christ in suffering for His name’s sake. Rejoice and be enormously, astronomically, historically glad, your dedication has been noted, your suffering has been seen, and your reward in Heaven is greater than you can even imagine! (James 4:4; Mark 8:37-38; Matthew 5:10-12; Matthew 6:4; Philippians 4:4; I Thessalonians 5:16; James 1:12; II Corinthians 4:17)

They hadn’t come here for this. They hadn’t assembled on this day to be slaughtered where they stood. They had no intention of being a sitting target for the enemy. In fact, everything they had done over the last few days was to ensure victory. Foreign gods had once again been removed. Idols were destroyed. They had turned as one back to God. Hearts, souls, service. His alone. Just as Samuel had told them to do. 

It was their last defense against the Philistines. Nothing else had worked. They had even stolen the Ark of God. It hadn’t exactly worked out for the Philistines, owning the Ark. They should have seen the error of their ways when their sightless, voiceless, unhearing, motionless god fell to the ground before the Ark. They didn’t. They should have packed it up and shipped it back when tumors first broke out among them. Again they didn’t. Men were ill. Some died. Mice ravaged the land. It would be seven months before they sent the Ark on its way. 

Still, the Philistines were not finished with them. The men of Israel knew it. Again and again the Philistines would come against them until they had defeated, killed, captured, and plundered. Desperate to fend off the coming series of altercations, they gathered before Samuel hoping to hear words of wisdom and guidance. Words of victory. Words from God. 

Except they weren’t following Him. When they previously went out to battle the Philistines, they had been cocky. Placed their faith in the Ark itself. Thought they were unbeatable simply for carrying it into the battle. Essentially idolized the Ark instead of the true God it represented. They had fallen aside to worship Baal and fall before Ashtaroth. The Ark of God had been captured and the Israelites were faced with the truth. The Ark itself did not have the power to save them. Salvation could only come from a clean break with sin and a complete turning to God. 

So they did it. Renovated their land. Redecorated their houses. Removed the idols. Returned to God. Made the trek to Mizpah where they assembled with the prophet Samuel for a time of confession, judgment, prayer, fasting and pouring out water before the only true God. The One they were choosing as their one and only Lord.   

The Philistines were not fasting or praying. They were not busy changing their hearts and ways. Nope. They were spying on Israel. Like a hawk tracking a field mouse, the Philistines were aware of Israel’s every move. When they saw them assemble at Mizpah, their usually grim faces must have wreathed in smiles. Someone probably did a premature victory dance. Gathering their gear, the Philistines headed out to gather up some Israelite heads. 

 It was a terrifying moment. As the alarm cry rang out that the Philistines were coming up against the gathering, the men of Israel were filled with fear. They had been here before. They had battled the Philistines. The outcome had been horrific. Tens of thousands of foot soldiers littered the battlefield as a result of that attack. The Ark of God was taken. Eli’s sons died. Not one man still standing there was interested in a repeat of that event. 

Nearly in unison, they turned to Samuel and began to beg for his help. Surely if one of them had God’s attention, could garner heavenly aid, it would be Samuel! “Pray for us! Keep praying! Don’t stop crying out to our God! We know we can’t stand against the Philistines alone. Ask Him to save us!” Samuel did. Offering a burnt offering before the Lord, Samuel cried out to the God of Israel for hope, help, a rescue. And God answered. 

Clearly the battle acumen of the Philistines was greatly exaggerated, at least in the minds of the men of Israel. They were not the unbeatable force everyone assumed them to be. At least not to God. He didn’t even lift a finger. He just made a loud noise. Thunder. Great thunder. Thunder like no one had ever heard before. Thunder that so rattled the brains of the Philistines, they became confused and began to run away. Thunder only God could create to bring a victory only God could give. 

I don’t know if the men of Israel heard the thunder. Perhaps it was meant only for the ears of the Philistines. Perhaps God shielded their ears to keep their minds clear for battle. Perhaps the God they had so recently rededicated themselves to serving spared them the devastating effects of such an offensive sound. Regardless, they were of sound enough minds to follow hot on the heels of the fleeing Philistines. They chased and battled and struck down Philistines in a victory so great that Samuel took a large stone. Placed it precisely on that battlefield, named it Ebenezer, and announced, “This far, up to this moment, this place, the Lord has helped us.” (I Samuel 4:1-7:12)

They would need to remember it. Always. In moments of discouragement and despair, they would need to remember that stone and hold tightly to the knowledge that God, their God, the One they had chosen to follow completely, was walking with them. When the threat of battle loomed over them, they would need to look at that stone and remember that their God was not known to falter or fail. In the heat of battle, when the enemy raged in like an overwhelming flood, they would need to push aside the fear and terror, the feelings of helplessness, the sense of impending doom and fill their mind with the image of their Ebenezer. Their stone of help. The mental image of the spiritual truth that God will always come through for His people.

In times of peace, the sight of that stone, the memory of its placement, the message of its name would be integral to their spiritual survival. When all was well, the children growing, the crops flourishing, the evil one would also be working. Slyly. He would use comfort and complacency as the fertile ground on which to plant his seeds of sin. Over time, he would edge out the fervency of true service to God and slip in lackadaisical, slip-shod ways. He would fill minds with so many earthly cares, so much busyness, that there wouldn’t be time to go back and gaze on that stone, remember its meaning, and recall their total reliance on God. Without the remembrance of that stone and the words Samuel pronounced there, the people would fall to gods of wood and stone, follow the desires of their own hearts, and find themselves once again facing battles in their own strength. 

They would never win that way. Never be triumphant. Never find victory. Neither will you. You absolutely do not have the capacity to stand against the evil one and his schemes without God-your stone of help. You can’t deflect his fiery darts. You can’t dismiss his sneering voice. You can’t defend against his attacks of fear and doubt and worldly delusions without the help of Almighty God. But you have to follow Him alone to have it. He doesn’t share the credit. Doesn’t need to. There is no one with whom to share it. No one else can do what God does. (Isaiah 42:8; Psalm 83:18; Exodus 20:3-5; Isaiah 43:11; Psalm 44:5; Philippians 4:13; II Corinthians 12:9)

You know this to be true. Somewhere in your life is a time and place where you can look back and remember a mighty rescue from the hand of God. Perhaps it was the moment you realized the ominous darkness inhabiting your soul, asked Him for pardon and peace and He answered. Maybe it was the time you were fighting the forces of worry and fear of the future, yet you called to Him and He answered. Perhaps in the moment you struggled against the pull of the world, the siren call to fit in, be embraced by today’s culture, but God pulled you to Himself and embraced you with a love and acceptance that transcends every culture, every tax bracket, every soul. Maybe it wasn’t you at all. Maybe it was the gut-wrenching, groaning prayers of your soul poured out over a loved one or friend that seemed beyond the reach of grace and happy to be there. But you prayed, and your God answered. Maybe it was a moment my mind could never conjure, but you know it. You remember it. It’s your Ebenezer. Your reminder of who God is and what He does for His people. 

You need to put a rock on it. Mark your calendar. Set an annual alarm on your phone. Write a sticky note for the refrigerator door. Journal about it. Write it in lipstick on your bathroom mirror. Memorize that moment and revisit it often. You will need to because the enemy is not going to let up. He will come at you with fear and anxiety, worries and cares. He will attempt to hijack your soul with lies about your identity, your worth, your abilities. He will question your allegiance so convincingly you might be tempted to question it as well. Eventually, he will stage a violent battle for your soul. He will tell you it is impossible for you to fight him and win. He won’t be wrong. You can’t fight him in your own strength and come out victorious. Good thing you don’t have to. Your God–the One who fights for you regardless if you are perfectly fit or too tired, too hurt, too broken to battle for yourself–will bring you out triumphant. So get up there and put a rock on it. You are going to need to remember this moment. (Psalm 60:12; Deuteronomy 20:4; Isaiah 54:17; Psalm 34:17; II Corinthians 10:4-5)

He couldn’t sleep. The room wasn’t dark enough; his mind wasn’t quiet enough. The lengthening light of the spring evening slipped around the heavy drapes and stretched across his coverlet, reminding him of the season and where his troops were currently quartered. Unlike him, they weren’t enjoying the luxury of a good bed, a lavish meal, a warm bath. No. They were set up in a battle encampment, sleeping in shifts on unforgiving ground, living on unappetizing food, relentlessly plotting, planning, and strategizing how best to exterminate their enemy. He should be with them. 

Often he had been. From the moment he’d chosen those 5 stones and walked out to face a growling, mocking Goliath, David had frequently been on the battlefield. He was good at it. Excellent, really. So great was his skill and cunning that King Saul appointed him as head of the army. He thrived in that position, leading them to victory over and over again. So often, in fact, the people greeted him in the streets with chants and songs of the tens of thousands he had slain. (I Samuel 17:23-27, 18:5-7)

Eventually, David became king himself. His battle acumen did not lessen. He built a formidable army, made a name for Israel. Everyone knew their reputation. They knew God was on Israel’s side. Everyone who had ever met David on the training field, the battlefield, or the strategy board knew that being a warrior was ingrained by God into his very being. It was who he was, an integral part of his identity. So why was the warrior king fighting insomnia in a palace while his men fought a battle in a field? (II Samuel 2-10)

Perhaps that very question plagued David as well. Maybe he couldn’t quite find the answer. Maybe the evasiveness of the answer brought with it his current bout of insomnia. Perhaps it was the examination of those possible motives that had David climbing out from under his embroidered coverlet, shoving his feet in slippers, tossing a robe around his shoulders, and walking the roof in the dimming light of evening. It probably wasn’t the first time he walked the roof to gain perspective. 

The trek was habitual. The roof was his thinking ground, his solitude. It was where he went when there were more questions than answers, more war than peace, more fear than faith. Instead of calling for a cup of warm milk, a melodious harpist, a scribe to read the annals of history, David walked the roof. Surveyed the kingdom. Looked to the hills, reminding himself from where his help would come. Raised his face to the wind, remembering God’s sovereignty and power. 

Regardless of what he normally did, David should have called for a hot beverage, a musician, and a scribe that night. When he chose to walk the roof, he should have kept his eyes trained on the hills. Bracing himself, he should have tipped his face into the wind and focused on his God. He should never have looked out over the kingdom. Why? Because the evil one was walking the kingdom, looking for a way to trip up the warrior king God had chosen to lead His people. And blindly, David, that fearless leader, cunning strategist, unbeatable soldier, walked straight into a trap.   

Gaze drifting from rooftop to rooftop, mind boggled with answer-less questions, David begins his usual stroll. He’s not looking for anything in particular. He’s not focused on anything specific. Until he is. His mind empties as his eyes rest on the picture before him. A bathing woman. Completely beautiful. Wholly inappropriate. He should look away. Walk away. Run. Scrub his mind. Erase the memory. Forget it ever happened. He doesn’t. 

The evil one isn’t about to let it go. Finding a chink in the armor of God’s warrior is the proverbial icing on his dilapidated cake. Over and over again he flashes that picture before David’s mind. Desire develops. David weakens. He sets out to determine the bathing beauty’s identity, quietly inquiring among his staff to know her name and to whom she belongs.

It was not ideal news. The beauty relentlessly invading his thoughts and dreams is  Bathsheba. Uriah’s wife. Married. Committed. Not free. He should walk away. Let it go. Forget what he’d seen. Forget what he wanted. Forget he was a king whose every wish was a command. He didn’t. Wouldn’t. Couldn’t scrape together enough self-control. Ignoring the jab of conscience, he sent messengers to bring Bathsheba to him. 

Later, watching Bathsheba make her way from his palace, surely David promised his aggravated conscience it would never happen again. It was a one-and-done sin. No one would ever know. Uriah would come home from battle and pick up right where he left off. His house. His wife. His life. 

Except he doesn’t. The repercussions of sin infiltrate David’s daydream of anonymity. In desperation, he attempts a series of coverups. When all the innocuous methods fail, David turns deadly. With the power of his pen, he sends Uriah back to battle carrying his own death warrant. Then arrogantly marries Uriah’s wife. Takes over Uriah’s life. (II Samuel 11)

By the time I read the final verse of this account, I’m sick to my stomach. Incredulous that the same man who wrote the words of the Psalms fell so far so fast. Especially Psalm 101. A promise to walk in integrity–Within. His. House?! A vow to keep his vision focused on purity?! A staunch refusal of evil, slander, arrogance, and deceit?! An absolute statement of destruction for all those who are wicked and engage in iniquity! How can these be the words of the same David who engaged in visual impurity, arrogant misuse of his authority, and deceitful cunning to cover his sin? (Psalm 101)

How can they be our words? How can we walk among the ranks of the righteous singing words of love and peace and grace, but walk the trenches of the world spewing fear and pride and hate? How can we profess to know Jesus Christ yet not prove it with our actions? How can we call ourselves followers of Jesus when our following is limited to public appearances? How do our private actions affect our public witness? What do we do in secret that we will do anything to keep covered? (Titus 1:15-16; James 2:17,26)

That was David’s problem, you know. There was sin in his house. Invited sin. Harbored sin. Covered sin. And wherever sin is, Jesus isn’t. The two do not coexist. They cannot. They will not. They are diametrically opposed. Sin brings death. Jesus brings life. You cannot serve them both, and whichever one inhabits your heart will inhabit your thoughts and words and deeds. You will find your sin multiplying to cover the previous sin until your soul is covered in an avalanche of sins you can no longer keep covered. Sin is dangerous. It multiplies. And it brings death. (Ezekiel 18:20; John 10:10, 14:6; Matthew 6:24; Luke 6:45; Proverbs 28:13)

Soul death. Death no one can see. Death about which no one knows. Hidden erosion of the soul. Death that stagnates your spirit, stalemates your witness, and stunts your growth. The death from which you can only feign recovery unless you repent before Almighty God. So search your soul. Open every closet door. Knock down every cobweb. Rid yourself of any sin, every sin. Dedicate yourself to truly living for Jesus no matter where you are, who is around, or what anyone else is doing. Even when you are alone and there seems to be no accountability, live for Jesus then, too. It’s dangerous not to. Practice following Jesus in private so it will be your genuine response in public. Remembering this, if you choose to live for Jesus only in some places rather than in any place, you will eventually stop following Him in every place. Home. Work. School. Church. In any place you find yourself, may your life reflect the One you have chosen to serve in every place. (Ephesians 5:1; Joshua 1:8; Lamentations 3:40; Psalm 119:133; Deuteronomy 13:4)

Shock reverberated over the huddle of twelve men. Mouths hung agape. Astonished gazes met across the circle. This had to be a dream. It felt like deja vu. Not so long ago they had stood in another place, before another group of thousands, and heard Jesus ask them to do the same thing. Feed the people. 

The disciples were unaware they were serving a buffet. They were unprepared. They had brought nothing to eat, either. No grocery bag of snacks slung casually over a shoulder. No bottomless knapsack of breadsticks. No bursting kreel from a nearby lake. Not even a long-forgotten candy found in the deep recesses of a lint-infested pocket. How exactly were they supposed to feed the people with nothing?

Clearly believing lunch was on their tab, the disciples looked around for viable possibilities. There were a few options. The countryside was full of villages. There were food stalls and inns where they could obtain sustenance. Houses and farms where folks might be persuaded to aid in the prevention of starvation. If they dismissed immediately, the people could go find themselves something to eat. Yet, when they presented the idea to Jesus, He turned it down. 

Instead, He sent them out to find out how much bread was in the crowd. It was a tedious job. There were a lot of people. Walking among the rows turned up only a child’s lunch–five bread loaves and two fish. The result wasn’t worth the effort. The discovered groceries wouldn’t feed one grown man, let alone 5,000! Until Jesus touched it. Lifting the bread toward Heaven, Jesus blessed it, broke it, and handed it to the disciples with the same instructions He’d given before. Feed the people. And they did. (Mark 6:33-44)

But that was last time. There had been options had they needed them. Homes and towns and farms. This time, there was nothing. Not one house, one hut, one hovel. The desolation was so profound, there was absolutely nothing edible in that place. Yet Jesus asked them to do the same thing He’d asked them to do when teaching near the villages. Feed the people.  

Frustration bubbling to the top, they fire off questions and arguments in rapid succession. Was Jesus unfamiliar with their location? It was barren, the land inhospitable. Nothing edible grew there. Literally nothing. Where were they supposed to get food here? Where would anyone find food here? Any food? Enough food? From where the disciples stood, the option of sending the people home had a slightly higher survival rate. Even if they fainted on the way, perhaps someone with an extra loaf tucked in his satchel would stop to help. Here it was hopeless. 

Jesus wasn’t having it. Not the excuses. Not the questions. Not the arguments. If He wished, even for a moment, that His disciples would remember how He’d fed the 5,000 with five bread rolls and two fishes, He never mentioned it. He simply got down to business. The business He had called the disciples to do. Feeding the people. 

Seven bread loaves appeared from somewhere. A few fish were scrounged out of the bottom of someone’s sack. Seating everyone on the ground, Jesus held up the bread and blessed it. Breaking the loaves, he gave the pieces to His disciples and sent them out to do His bidding. The same bidding as before when the crowd had been larger, the resources less. Feed the people. Keep feeding them until they are full. Pick up the leftovers. Send everybody home. (Mark 8:1-9)

Why didn’t they think of that? Why didn’t the disciples, in that reminiscent moment, just ask Jesus to do it again? Why didn’t they immediately set out to count the remaining bread loaves and search for the final few fish? Why did they take time to question and argue and create bottomless excuses? Knowing what they knew of His ability. Seeing what they had seen. Hearing what they had heard. Why didn’t the disciples simply ask Jesus to do it again?  

Perhaps it is human nature. They certainly weren’t the first to come up with questions and excuses and disbelief when God set out to feed His people. Beleaguered by belligerent Israelites weeping and wailing over the lavish food they’d left behind in Egypt, Moses cried out to the Lord for strength to carry the burden of leadership. The people wanted meat. Moses didn’t have any. They were in the wilderness. There wasn’t meat. There was manna. Only manna. It was how God was feeding His people.

Angry with their complaining and the wantonness of their hearts, the ease with which they would have turned back to Egypt for a filet of fish and a cucumber leek salad, God spoke a message to Moses, “Tell the people they will eat meat tomorrow. And not just tomorrow, but the next day as well. And the next. And the next. And the next. They will eat meat for an entire month. They will eat so much meat they will be sick of it. Loathe the sight and smell. Refuse to eat it. But if meat is what they want, meat is what they will get.”

Like the New Testament disciples, Old Testament Moses sputtered out explanations, questions, concerns. Did God realize how many of them there were? Hundreds of thousands. Where was the meat coming from? Were they to slaughter all the flocks and herds? Trek to the nearest body of water and eradicate its inhabitants? How exactly did God expect Moses to make this happen at all, much less by tomorrow? Clearly Moses thought the responsibility of providing meat for several hundred thousand people was his alone.

It wasn’t. If God wished for even a moment that Moses would look back, remember all the miracles God had worked, and wait expectantly for Him to do it again, He doesn’t mention it. Patiently waiting for Moses’ litany of questions and concerns to exhaust themselves, God answers when he stops to suck in a breath, “Is there a limit to the power of the Lord? Watch and see what I will do. See if I will fulfill the words I have spoken or not.” 

He did. Standing in the center of the camp, facelifted into the wind, Moses watched God do what He always does. Feed the people. The wind snapping his cloak and blowing hair in his eyes also blew in quail from the sea. Not just a few. Not just enough for one meal. Thousands. They littered the ground. Stacked nearly knee-deep. And surely Moses wondered why he had worried and doubted in the first place. Why hadn’t he simply asked God to do it again? (Numbers 13; Exodus 8:1-9:7; 14; 16:1-7; 17:1-7)

Why don’t we? When facing an impossible, improbable, insurmountable problem, why don’t we turn to God and ask Him to do it again? Do another miracle. Make another way. Forge a path where there isn’t one. Feed our dry, desperate, decrepit souls again. Why do we grab on to God’s promises, but act like their fulfillment is up to us? Why do we worry and work as if it is up to us to do God’s job? Why do we so arrogantly think we can? (Luke 18:27; Mark 10:27; Proverbs 3:6: Matthew 17:20)

We can’t, you know. Do God’s job. And He’s not asking us to do it. He’s asking us to be obedient and willing to follow His plan, even when we can’t see the path ahead. He’s asking us to have faith in Him, even when we don’t understand how He’s going to work. He’s asking us to look back at all the things He has done, miracles He has wrought, desert moments He’s turned into springs, place our dwindling hope in Him, and trust Him to do it again.

I hope you do. I hope you take those cares and concerns, worries and fears, frustrations and doubts to God. I hope you roll it all over on Him. I long for you to latch onto the promise of Romans 8:28 and truly believe from the depths of your being that He will work all things for good. Then let Him work. Don’t try to do His job for Him, micromanage Him, instruct Him. Trust Him. Obey Him. Just bring that impossible, improbable, insurmountable request to the Father, place it in His hands, and cry, “Lord, do it again!” (Romans 8:28; Isaiah 26:3, 55:8-9; Matthew 21:21-22; Deuteronomy 8:2; Isaiah 46:9, 59:1; I Peter 5:7)

Never before had they been tasked to bring this type of message to the king. Reeking of arrogance, it played more like a dirge than an offer for peaceful surrender. Every sentence was laced with defiance. The message Eliakim, Shebna, and Joah carried to Hezekiah was clear.  They were coming to conquer Jerusalem. They had conquered every other nearby nation. Samaria had been captured. Israel led away into exile. Assyria had recently captured Judah’s fortified cities. Jerusalem was the last stronghold. There was no reason to believe they couldn’t win this war as well, the damage would be irreparable, the death toll would be astronomical, the end result would be typical. The Assyrians felt certain they would be triumphant.  

Success had made them an arrogant lot. Boasting and bragging was part of their battle strategy. When it worked, they never had to lift a sword or aim an arrow. This likely wasn’t the first time they had come against an enemy flaunting their track record and spouting their filth. It is, however, possibly the first time they so astonishingly exaggerated their endorsements. Hollering out across the land, they claimed God, the very One to whom King Hezekiah so closely clung, had sent Assyria on a mission to destroy Jerusalem. Swore they had His full approval. Vowed that nothing and no one could or would stop their destructive destiny. And in the hearts of men across Jerusalem, their verbal arrows sowed seeds of doubt and fear. Doubt that God was planning to rescue them. Fear of what would happen if He didn’t. 

As the disconcerting words and reports fell on Hezekiah’s ears, his heart seized with pain for his people. The mantle of kingly responsibility weighed heavily on his shoulders. They needed a rescue. He didn’t have one. He had no idea how to defeat the Assyrian army.  But he knew Someone who did. 

In a move that must have puzzled every soul in royal employ, Hezekiah didn’t send Eliakim to call for a round table with his heads of national security. He didn’t send Shebna sprinting about with messages for generals to rally the troops. He didn’t have Asaph quietly request the presence of his most trusted advisors for a clandestine meeting to sort out the coming chaos. No. He had a more important meeting to attend. Throwing off his robe of majesty, Hezekiah donned his sackcloth of humility, entered the house of the Lord, and sent out only one message. A simple prayer request to the prophet Isaiah. 

“We stand under threat of capture and oppression at the hand of the Assyrians. They say God is behind it. He isn’t. I know better. I know God heard every blasphemous word that came from Rabshakeh’s mouth. And I am asking you, prophet of the living God, to offer a prayer of deliverance on our behalf.” 

No prayer by Isaiah is recorded. Perhaps none was necessary. Perhaps God’s anger was already so incited by the ridiculous words of Assyria that He answered before a prayer could be uttered. It doesn’t matter. Only His answer does. In words clear and concise, leaving nothing to interpretation, God’s answer came, “Don’t worry about that putrid spew of verbal vomit you just heard. You will be fine. I’ve got this.” (II Kings 19:6)

Returning to his ranks, awaiting a reply, Rabshakeh found a different situation. Instead of lying in wait for the signal to capture Jerusalem, the king of Assyria engaged in a different war. Not to be deterred, Rabshakeh dashed off a second round of reckless sputum to Hezekiah, even more blasphemous than the first. “Don’t relax. We will be back for you. You can’t trust your God to save you, no matter what He said. Here is a list of the kings we’ve defeated. Do the math. Does it really seem likely you will be spared?” (II Kings 19:8-13)

 Upon receiving the letter, Hezekiah does what we know from experience he will do. Pray. Once again, Hezekiah makes the trek to the house of the Lord. Unrolling the scroll, he meticulously smooths out the curls and wrinkles. Turning the words toward heaven, he lays that horrific letter before the Lord. Then, in calm, measured, unhurried sentences, Hezekiah begins to pray. His words are a bit surprising. They are not the expected words of a man holding a death threat. They are words of exaltation to the God who has never let Him down. Words that remind Hezekiah himself that he is talking to the One Being who is in charge of it all. Every king. Every kingdom. All of Heaven. Every inch of earth. The One who sits enthroned above the cherubim watching, acting, working on behalf of His people. 

Because Hezekiah needed to hear those words. He needed to remind himself that his requests were not falling on deaf ears. They were not knocking against brass heavens. His desperate need to salvage his people might be above his pay grade, but nothing is above God’s. In this moment of frustration, concern, consternation, and cluelessness, the God who handles the affairs of the entire universe was still Sovereign, He had not relinquished the reins, He had not abdicated His throne, and He would never, will never turn a blind eye to the discouragement and despair of His people.

Basing his words on the truth he knew about God and rooting his prayer in the depths of his faith, Hezekiah boldly brings his request to the God he has trusted, followed, clung to from the beginning of his reign. A prayer for God to hear the things Assyria was saying. Things that rained fear and worry upon the people of Jerusalem. Much of their boasting was true. The Assyrians had devastated many lands. They had a reputation for ruining and pillaging and capturing nation after nation. On the outside, their reign of terror appeared limitless. Maybe it had been. Until now. They hadn’t come up against Hezekiah’s God yet. 

Assyria’s experience with the majestic, sovereign God of the universe is clearly lacking. They have no idea what they are up against. Hezekiah does. That’s why he’s kneeling there in the Lord’s house, parchment spread before him, fervently entreating God to deliver Judah from Assyria. Not because the people deserve a break. Not even because Hezekiah has now twice sought the Lord concerning the matter. No. Hezekiah is praying that God will deliver them so that He alone will be lifted up, so every kingdom on earth, upon hearing of the salvation of Judah, will know that He is God alone. There is no one before or beside Him. The Lord is God–the only God–in Heaven and on earth, and He is alive and working on behalf of His people. 

In words that speak peace to my soul centuries after they were spoken from God to Isaiah to Hezekiah, the answer comes, “Because you prayed to Me…I have heard you.” Because you prayed before you sought human advice. Because you prayed before you tried human machinations. Because you came to God before you approached human conference tables. Those B.C. words echo into my A.D. mind as a reminder to pray first, talk later. They remind me to hit my knees before I tap the speed dial, send a text, shoot off my mouth. They constantly prod me to pray first, pray often, pray about everything. (II Kings 18-19)

Because I serve the same God Hezekiah served. The God who sits in Heaven and watches every action of every man. The God who knows the hearts and minds of every person on earth. The God who speaks and plans and promises things that no one can thwart or change or negate. The God who promised to be with us, strengthen us, help us, and uphold us. The God who, although the world seems to be spinning out of control at an alarming rate, has never relinquished His sovereign omnipotence. He is still seated on His throne. He is still listening to the cries of His people. And we can trust Him. (Isaiah 14:27, 43:13; Romans 8:28; Job 42:2; Isaiah 41:10; Psalm 47:8; Psalm 145:13; Proverbs 15:3) 

In a world where nothing is trustworthy, where sin runs rampant, where the advice of a friend is skewed to their personal opinion, where human plans and machinations fall sadly short of the mark, you can trust God. You can bring Him anything, everything. The nasty rumors someone spread. The evil words spoken against you. The things that make you feel hurt and defeated and tired. Bring them to Him. Bring it all to Him. The questionable test results. The redundancy notice. The bill that’s bigger than your bank balance. Literally lay it in front of Him. He is not surprised by any of it. He’s prepared for all of it. No weapon formed against you can prosper when you pray about it. (Philippians 4:6-7; Isaiah 41:17; Isaiah 54:17; Psalm 66:19; Psalm 102:16-17)

So lay down your cell phone. Don’t phone a friend. Don’t shoot off a text. Turn it off entirely. Lay it all aside. Take your cue from Hezekiah. Pray about it. In humility, fervency, urgency, come boldly to the throne of grace and faithfully make your requests to Almighty God. Don’t be shy. Remember who your God is. Remember His power. Remember His promises. And ask. Ask for that uncrossable river to be forded. Ask for that mountain to be removed. Ask for streams in the desert and paths through your wilderness. Ask and watch God answer. Because He will answer. It might not be the way you think it should be. It might not be the grandiose miracle for which you hoped. It might not be what you think you want. It will be what you need. Right on time. Every time. God will hear. God will answer. Because you prayed. (Jeremiah 32:17; Psalm 91:15; Mark 11:23; I Peter 3:12; I John 5:15; Psalm 32:6)