Jesus Isn't Decaf (By Naomi Meyers)

The conversation was getting old. Very old. No one had really said anything new in quite some time. Points had been belabored. Arguments had been worn out. He was well and truly over it. Tired of being railed against. Weary of defending his innocence. Exhausted, both from physical suffering and the mental anguish of having more questions than answers. He would probably never have answers. Not before he met the Almighty face to face. An event that seemed closer now than ever before. The great culmination to the onslaught of disaster recently descended on his household. His earthly goods were gone. His servants were dead. His children were deceased. His body was painfully rotting before his eyes. His wife abhorred him. His friends had abandoned him. Except for the four silently sitting nearby. 

Job had been surprised to see the men approaching. They were better described as fair-weather friends. Happy to visit in good times, scarce in the bad. The fact they had taken the time to visit at all should have made him wary. Their reaction to his current condition should have had his guard all the way up. Wailing. Throwing dust in the air. Sinking down in silence to stare. At him. For a week. Seven days. Seven nights. Silence broken only by the sound of the pottery piece scraping the sores on Job’s flesh. 

It had been a very long seven days. And nights. No one spoke. No one could find words to begin the conversation. Job’s friends had no idea what to say to a man who had lost everything in one fell swoop. The enormity of the situation glued their tongues to the roofs of their mouths. Until Job had enough of the silent staring. In a move he may later have deeply regretted, Job tossed the conversational ball into the middle of the ring by cursing the day of his birth. Everything about it. He wishes his mother had never been pregnant, the day had never dawned, or his infant self had never drawn that first breath. It was apparently the winning penny in the slot machine, the diatribe that loosened everyone’s tongue. Suddenly, they all had things to say. Eliphas. Bildad. Zophar. Each man presenting his opinion on the cause of Job’s recent afflictions. Arguments that boiled down to one general idea. Job had sinned and not repented. 

Well. Job knew that wasn’t true! Even God would back him up on that. He was a man of integrity. Righteous. Godly. Prayerful. Carefully offering sacrifices for even the supposed sins of his children. His unequivocally rejects their idea. Although Job had no idea why God is picking on him, he fully believes it is not his own fault. His friends remain unconvinced. They argue. Back and forth the conversation goes. Finally, realizing they will never convince Job to repent and move on with his life, the three eldest friends fall back into silence. Irritated silence. Annoyed silence. Silence weighed down with heavy disapproval. Arms folded, faces set, they waited for Job to relent in penitence and, finally, reconciliation. (Job 1-31)

He had been waiting for this moment. The time when the older men had finally come to the end of their words, so he could start at the beginning of his. Elihu had so many things to say. He was angry. Very angry. At the other mourners for their implication that unrepented sin is the only reason for suffering. At Job, for his adamant defense of his own character while allowing the character of God to be impugned. He had listened in amazement at the back and forth, wondering if the men actually heard what they were saying. And now, sitting in the silent space created by the stubbornness of Job’s older three friends, Elihu finds his platform and speaks his truth. 

Verbally tugging Job’s hand, Elihu takes him on a word journey about God. With greater eloquence than one would expect, Elihu reminds Job of who God is. Older than time, God is the Creator and Sustainer of the entire universe. Nothing continues to live unless God chooses to breathe into it the breath of life. The world as we know it ceases to function without God’s vast knowledge and understanding. He creates dew and rain, feeding the earth with no help from mankind. With the words of His mouth, God sends the snow where He wills it. He gives the animals wisdom to care for themselves, leading them to food and water with no guide to lead them. He changes the seasons, moves the clouds, controls the sun and moon, all with the power of His voice. His glory and majesty strike awe in the hearts of mankind. His acts are amazing. His miracles are astounding. His person is clothed in incomparable splendor. Human words would exhaust before we could even scratch the surface of an explanation of God’s character. Yet still He chooses to speak to us. Simple humans. People who may or may not choose to listen. Still God, in justice and mercy and love, chooses to speak to us. Chooses to offer forgiveness and grace to those who come to Him in repentance and change. (Job 32-37) 

Elihu stops for a breath, giving Job the perfect opportunity to respond. Except he doesn’t get the chance. It is God’s turn. He has patiently been silent, listening to the conversation, but no more. Picking up where Elihu left off, God thunders from the whirlwind, verbally pulling Job up to the window of time and walking him through creation. Could Job have done those things? Suspended the planets in midair. Thrown stars in the sky. Drawn borders for the sea. Created day and night. Filled storehouses with snow and hail. Imagined rain and lightning and thunder and ice. Taught animals to care for themselves in hunting, birthing, raising their young. Given them abilities to fly and flee, and fight. Allowed them to instinctively know how to maintain their lives with no help from a caretaker or guide. Could Job have done those things? Was he wise enough? Was he powerful enough? Would he have been as meticulous, not leaving out one tiny detail? Well, Job? Could you? Would you? Did you? 

Having no response, Job chooses to shut his mouth. Finally. But God isn’t done. In even more articulate words and exact examples, God highlights His greatness, His power, His authority. Everything in Heaven and on earth belongs to Him. He has created every single thing. He has bestowed on each beast and being their abilities. He has provided for every part of their lives. And He didn’t need human input to do so. He didn’t need help or suggestions from any of us. Not one of us is in a position to question God’s wisdom. Because God is omnipotent, omniscient, omnipresent. He always has been. He always will be. Before the dawn of Creation to the final echo of the last Amen, God is and will always be. His wisdom is unsearchable. His power is unfathomable. His love is infallible. His word is unbreakable. He owns everything and needs nothing, and He gives good gifts to His children. Come and see! (Job 38-41; Isaiah 40:26; Acts 17:24-25; Jeremiah 23: 23-24, 32:7; I John 3:20; Matthew 7:11; Romans 11:33; Hebrews 6:18-20; Lamentations 3:22)

It doesn’t always feel like it. Ask Job. It didn’t feel like it to him, either. As his carefully created world collapsed around him, Job began to question if God really is just and fair. Does He really give good gifts to His children? Is there truly a good reason to live an upright, honest life if God isn’t going to spare you the unpleasantness of suffering? In essence, Job started to measure the greatness of God by the goodness of His gifts. Maybe you are in that same space. Perhaps those questions are your own. Is God still doing something good for you in the middle of your illness, your furlough, your endless job hunt, your financial overload? If the physical gifts stop flowing, is it still worth obediently following God? I would speak to you the words of Psalm 66:5, “Come and see.” 

Come and see the works of the Lord. Grab your Bible and read. Go back to the beginning of time and see how meticulously He worked to make the world a place where you could safely live. Follow the mind-boggling twists and turns of His imagination as He made day and night, land and sea, sky and stars. Consider the planning involved. Would you have thought to stop the oceans and create dry land? Would you have thought to make the plants produce oxygen to keep humans and animals alive? What about gravity? Involuntary movements? Blinking? Breathing? Heart beats? If you had tried to create this world on your own, what sorry state would it be in? So why do you question the work God is doing in your life? He clearly has this. Even if it is uncomfortable, unpleasant, undesirable, God is still working. He is working all things together for your good. Eventually, you will see it. In the interim, stop worrying. Choose instead to see all the things God has done. The things you take for granted. Go out of your way to find them. Stop in the middle of your day and think about them. Purposely consider the works of God from the beginning of time and know that you can trust Him with your life. The proof is all around you. Come and see. (Genesis 1; Philippians 2:13; Romans 1:20, 8:28; Psalm 8:3-6, 19:1, 100:4-5; Acts 14:17; Proverbs 3:19-20; Ecclesiastes 7:13)

Rising from the rough-hewn table before him, the elderly gentleman stretched his back and flexed his fingers. He’d been sitting there a while. Hunched over pieces of parchment. His fingers wrapped around a quill. His eyes squinting to see in the dimly lit room. The letters were finally written. All seven of them. His heart was filled with mixed emotions. The congratulatory remarks and corrective comments spoke volumes about the state of the churches outside his prison exile. As he contemplated the words he had just recorded, John’s heart bubbled with mixed emotions. The opening sentiment of each letter resounded ominously in his ears, giving him pause, and birthing the impossible desire to deliver the letters in person, “I know everything you do.” (Revelation 2:2, 9, 13, 19; 3:1,8,15)

It wasn’t news. Not really. Definitely not new information. The truth that God sees every caper humanity gets up to was not an astonishing revelation. Not to John. Not to the members of the ancient church. It was a story as old as time. First exhibited when Adam and Eve decided to eat the forbidden fruit in the Garden of Eden. Further proven when Cain played innocent over Abel’s murder. Echoed through history in the sound of Sarah’s uncovered laughter at God’s promise of a child. Underscored by the prophet Nathan’s scathing rebuke of David’s secret affair with Bathsheba and the ensuing murder of Uriah. And it wasn’t just outward actions God saw. He knew their thoughts. Read their hearts. Saw the state of their souls. He knew when they were obeying on the outside but rebelling on the inside. Like the Pharisees and religious leaders of Jesus’ day. (Genesis 3; 4:8-10; 18:1-15; II Samuel 11:1-12:18)

No one could fault their keeping of the law. They were meticulous. About everything. At least everything one could see. They kept the Sabbath. Fasted regularly. Prayed openly. Gave publicly. They followed the verbiage of the law entirely, even if they left out the spirit of those words. They kept every tradition to the fullest extent and expected others to do the same. Their outer piety was legendary. Until Jesus called it worthless. Meaningless. If they were relying on their good works and proper words to get them to heaven, they were in for a sorrowful surprise. Their hearts were filthy. Underneath all the proper behavior and carefully phrased conversations that had others tricked into believing they were holy, their hearts were filled with greed, selfishness, hypocrisy, and sin. But Jesus wasn’t fooled. He wasn’t confused. He wasn’t taken in by their good works. He looked at their hearts. He saw their attitudes and intentions. He saw the deadly desires buried deep within. He knew them and had cautionary words for their situation. Watch your heart. Know it. Understand that he sin you harbor in your heart will eventually push its way out and become the thing that defiles you. Evil thoughts. Hatred. Adultery. Lying. Slander. Know yourself. Know your heart. Because God already does. He sees you. All of you. Public acts. Audible words. Private thoughts. Secret desires. (Matthew 15:1-20; 27:25-28)

The opening words of the letters to the churches held a similar message. God saw their actions and their circumstances, but He also knew their hearts. He commended them on their endurance and discernment, their faith and boldness, their obedience and strength. He applauded those who were constantly improving in service to God. These were all good things. But for most of the congregations, little things were creeping in. They were tired–physically and spiritually. The battle for their souls, their churches, and their lives was raging on and wearing them out. Exhaustion was winning. Every day seemed like a monumental effort to put one foot in front of the other. They were struggling, and it showed. Their love for God wasn’t as strong as it had been. Their fervor was waning. As a result, their strength to weed out false prophets and teachers had grown soft. They had become permissive. Adopted a “live and let live” philosophy inside God’s church. They had become complacent. Fallen asleep spiritually. Grown cold and indifferent. The parameters God had set for His church to uphold had wobbled, and bits had fallen down. As many good and commendable things as they were doing, they were also struggling. And they needed to tighten up. 

That was the purpose of these letters. John knew it. With every heartbreaking word he penned, with every tear that fell on the parchment, with every direction God spoke, John wished he could be there in person to remind them that God knows everything. What you do. What you think. What you feel. What you allow to take root in your heart and life and church…and why. He wished he could walk among them, sit down with them, personally remind them that God knows the thoughts and intentions of every heart, He sees every action in public or secret, and He will mete out the deserved punishment or reward. Yet there John was, a prisoner, with only a pen to share the words of God with the people of God. Only a prayer that the letters would reach them in time. Only a long shot hope that centuries later, the modern church of God would read those words of God and, being the people of God, would follow the ways of God. Without regret. Without apology. Without alteration. (Revelation 2-3)

In a moment of complete transparency, we must admit it hasn’t happened. In the ensuing centuries, we have often given way to complacency and hypocrisy. We have been tired and lackadaisical, distracted and careless. We have slipped from what we once had. Our dedication to God is often lackluster. Our devotion to Him is lukewarm. The holy fire present in the church of God in the book of Acts is clearly lacking today. We have adopted modern thinking, allowed alleged scholars to tamper with and twist the commands of God. We have become permissive, excusing sin and arrogantly presuming upon the grace of God. We have been happy to hear sermons that give us warm fuzzies, but less than content with ones that don’t. We aren’t looking for truth that comes close and searches our hearts. We are content the way we are. Happy to attend church, do good deeds, and pretend everything is okay. Content to continue believing that if we do all the right things and say all the right words, God will be tricked into believing we still love Him as much as we did at first. Know this now, He won’t. (II Timothy 4:3; II Peter 2:1-3; Matthew 24:11-12; Psalm 139:23-24)

God will not be mocked or tricked, or confused. He never is. He sees everything clearly. All the things you do. All the things you think. All the things you secretly hide in your heart. He knows if you are truly surrendered to Him and His will or if you are simply putting in the actions, speaking all the words, putting up a front like the Pharisees. He knows where your thoughts run in times of turmoil and trouble. He knows the private battle you fight. He is deeply, painfully aware when you choose to give in, give up, give over. And, if you listen, He will speak. To you. Words similar to the ones He sent to the seven churches. Congratulatory commendations. Careful corrections. Words reminding you that He knows everything you do, say, think, and feel. Words that call you to clean up, tighten up, toughen up. Words of love in the form of discipline, because everyone God loves, He disciplines. (Revelation 3:19; Hebrews 12:11; Galatians 6:7; Matthew 7:16-18; II Corinthians 9:6)

In expertly written and beautiful to read words, the Psalmist dutifully reminds us that there is no where we can go or be that will remove us from the sight and presence of God. He knew you would be in this specific place at this specific time in your life. He knows your future as well as He knows your past. Nothing you have done in the past is hidden from Him. Nothing you will do in the future is unknown to Him. The number of days allotted to your earthly existence are already written. God knows their beginning, middle, and end. He knows the events that will fill them. He also knows what fills your heart. Yesterday. Today. Tomorrow. So examine yourself. Determine if you are truly walking with Him, living for Him, submitted to Him. Find out if you are hot or cold spiritually. Know if hypocrisy, complacency, or indifference has begun to infiltrate your heart. Get back into right relationship with Him. Allow Him to give you His presence, peace, strength, and endurance. Ask Him for wisdom and discretion. Embrace obedience. Stand firm against the things that grieve His heart. Remembering this. God knows all the things you do. In public. In private. He searches your thoughts and intentions. He knows the posture of your heart and whether or not it matches the actions you show the world. And He wants to be lord of it all. Every single thing you do. (Psalm 139:1-18; I Corinthians 8;6; II Corinthians 13:5; Lamentations 3:40; James 1:5; Ephesians 6:12-14; I Timothy 6:15; Jeremiah 17:10)

The offer seemed nearly too good to be true, too simple to be trusted. They had never liked him. They despised his parentage, chased him off their land, vowed he would receive no portion of his father’s inheritance. Now his half-brothers, legitimate sons of his father, were calling for his return. Begging. Pleading. Promising. They needed him. His strength. His commanding presence. His head for battle. The Ammonites were on the war path, and Israel was scared. Terrified, really. The army encamped against them was worrisome. At the end of their wits and the bottom of their resources, the worried men of Gilead sent word to Jephthah. If he would come defeat the Ammonites, they would make him their ruler. Simple as that.   

Jephthah’s reputation clearly preceded him. He was a mighty warrior, a strong leader. He’d had to be. His life had been spent fighting. For a space at the table, a place to belong, an area where he was recognized for who he was, not for who his parents were. The son of a prostitute, his father may have taken him in, but his half-brothers despised him. Bearing the brunt of his mother’s scorned profession and his father’s indiscretion, Jephthah lived ready to fight. After being unceremoniously ushered from his father’s land without an ounce of inheritance, his ability to lead had been proven by the formation of his own ragtag group of rebels. Jephthah wasn’t sitting around waiting for his half-brothers to come calling. He was building a life for himself. Married a wife. Had a daughter. No other children had come along, but that was fine. He adored his daughter. And now, just as his life seemed to be settling into a decent rhythm, the people who had pushed him out of Gilead were back begging for his help and making promises he wasn’t sure they could keep. 

Not that he wasn’t interested in testing the theory. He was. Jephthah was absolutely interested in becoming the leader of the people who had kicked him out. What a boon that would be! And the Ammonites were being ridiculous. They had no claim to the land. If they had a claim, if they really wanted it, they wouldn’t have waited 300 years to come and try to take it. Not once in that time had the Ammonites attempted to take it back, by force or any other means. What stirred them up now was anyone’s guess. Yet here they were, claiming the land had been stolen from them generations past and demanding that it be peaceably handed back. As if that was going to happen. 

It wasn’t. Not today. Not any day. Not so long as Jephthah had any say about it. The way he understood the story, Israel had never taken the land. They had never been anything but peaceable about things. Asking permission to cross lands rather than simply barging across. Going out of their way to appease the kings of Edom and Moab. Trying to work with King Sihon. Unfortunately, his response to their request was to start a war against Israel. A war God finished. In response to the military attack by King Sihon, Israel defended itself. And God brought an astonishing victory. One that gave Israel control of the entire region. They had been there ever since. God’s victory. God’s land. God’s gift to Israel. The Ammonites were welcome to come try to take it. And they did. (Numbers 21:21-35)

The Ammonite king wasn’t picking up what Jephthah was laying down. Perhaps the man was daft. He was bent on war. And he got it. Gathering fighting men from throughout the land, Jephthah built a mighty army. He lined them up in a battle array. Then Jephthah did something that seems completely unnecessary given his seemingly faith-filled speech to the king of Ammon. Something that seems to indicate his heart might have been more interested in that position of power than he previously let on. Something that appears to reveal doubt lurking just below the surface of his brave facade. Jephthah bargains with God. Not just any bargain, either. Jephthah makes an “If you…I will…” vow. If God will give them victory over the Ammonites, Jephthah will give God the first thing that comes out of his house to meet him when he returns. As a sacrifice. A burnt offering. 

The Bible does not record a response from God to this vow. Nothing verbal. No special sign. Lightning doesn’t flash to seal the deal. The earth doesn’t shake. God seems to remain silent where the vow is concerned. But He does give them victory. Jephthah and his army crushed the Ammonites. Devastated their towns. Scattered their armies. Left absolutely no question as to who now owned that land. God gave Israel victory. And Jephthah had a promise to keep.  

Returning home, Jephthah should have been riding high on the wave of glorious victory. He wasn’t. His heart was heavy. His soul was burdened. His mind kept replaying the rash vow he made to God. What had he been thinking? Why had he said those words? What momentary blip occurred in his brain to make him vow such a thing? It had the potential to end badly. He knew it. In his spirit, he knew things could go enormously wrong. And they did. 

Nearing his home, Jephthah watched in disbelief as the door flew open and his daughter rushed out. His only child. His cherished girl. Beautiful. Vibrant. Full of life and joy. Her tambourine was in her hand. Her feet were dancing. Her face was brimming with celebratory joy and pride in her father. And Jephthah’s heart shattered. The blood drained from his face. He fought to keep himself upright. When he made the vow, he was only thinking of wheedling and cajoling God into giving them victory so he could be the ruler over the people who wronged him. He hadn’t considered the consequences. Until now. Until he stood facing the daughter he loved more than his own life and realized he had promised God he would offer her as a sacrifice to Him. Jephthah didn’t consider the ramifications of his vow until it came time to perform it. Now he was hesitant to do so. (Judges 11:1-35)

One wonders if Jephthah’s hesitancy would have been the same had something or someone else exited his home. If an animal had come out the door and down the path, would he have fulfilled his vow on the spot with no remorse? If someone of whom he was not fond exited as he approached, would he have found his promise as difficult to keep? Probably not. It doesn’t work that way for us, either. When the promises we make to God are easy and palatable to keep, we have no problem fulfilling them. When they cost us little or nothing, we fulfill our vows and move on. But what about the ones that cost us? The ones we make in the dark of night when our prayers are urgent, our situation dire, our needs and wants so pressing we will do anything to bribe God into doing what we want done. What about those promises? Will you really give extra money to missions if God rescues you from joblessness with a six-figure income? Will you dedicate your free time to charity work if He heals your crippling illness? Will you devote your entire life to spreading the gospel all over the world if God grants you whatever wish you have at this moment? Do you really believe the God who made everything and needs nothing is selling His blessings for the paltry sum of your good intentions? When it is all said and done, when God has given you what your heart desires, when your promise is lying next to your trouble in the rearview mirror, do you truly intend to keep the vow you made, or is your heart already searching for a way to renege? 

It seems Jephthah’s heart was looking for a way around his vow. A loophole. A caveat. An opportunity for alteration. At least his daughter thought so. And she wasn’t having it. Although the brunt of the vow fell on her, she bravely took it up. Looked her waffling father straight in the eyes and told him to keep the vow. He had to. He promised. And he did. After two months of roaming the hills, mourning the fact she would never marry and have children, devastated though they were, Jephthah’s daughter came back, and he kept the vow he made to God. Not because it was easy. Not because he wanted to. Not only because he couldn’t find a way around it. Jephthah kept his promise to God because God had done what he asked when he promised. (Judges 11:36-39)

Admittedly, there is no limit of argument among scholars over the vow of Jephthah. Why he made it. Whether or not he was obligated to keep it. How he fulfilled it. The posture of his heart when he did. I’m not really interested in the argument. What interests me, what feels very real for us today, is the pointed way this account depicts for us the truth of Proverbs 20:25, “Don’t make promises to God rashly. Consider the cost first.” I find we are no better at following this advice than Jephthah. (Proverbs 20:25)

Caught in the tension of our own desires and the possibility that God’s plans do not match our own, we often find ourselves bargaining with God. We wrestle. We beg. We plead. We attempt to manipulate. If He will give us the money, the miracle, the motivation, we will give Him something, anything in return. Sitting in that space where our fear outweighs our faith, those promises get out of control. When the clouds finally part and our minds are clear, we look back on them with regret. We search for loopholes, for caveats, for opportunities to alter the wording. Unfortunately, the truth of Deuteronomy 23:21 still holds. God doesn’t take your promises to Him lightly. He doesn’t look at them as possibilities. He expects you to keep them. All of them. (Numbers 30:2; Ecclesiastes 5:4-5; Psalm 76:11; Deuteronomy 23:21) 

So are you? Are you living the life you promised HIm you would when you first came to Him in repentance? Are you following the career path you promised to follow when you heard His call? Have you made the changes you vowed to make when He lovingly highlighted the error of your ways? When conviction settles in your heart, are you obediently keeping the promises you made to salve your conscience and restore your peace? When your desperation to manipulate the outcome of your situation had you throwing yourself on your knees and making promises to God, are you keeping those promises? Are you keeping the promises you made to God in the middle of your storm, your sadness, your suffering? In the face of God’s unfailing love that will not force you to do something against your will, is your word still your bond? Does your integrity show? Are you keeping your promises to God? All of them? Even the ones made in secret and known only to Him? (I John 2:5; Proverbs 11:3, 20:27; Psalm 66:13-14; Malachi 1:14; I Kings 8:39)

Nervously twisting her fingers together, she loitered outside the house. No one was supposed to know He was here. No one was encouraged to approach. No one was intended to come looking for a miracle. Yet here she was. Half hidden behind a shrub near the corner of his residence. Furtively glancing around. Watching. Waiting. Hoping to catch Jesus before others realized He was there. Hoping to present her case. Hoping He would listen. Because Jesus really was her only hope. Her last resort. The only possible resolution to their problem. Her daughter needed a miracle. Right then. That very day. 

Every day the woman felt another piece of her heart shatter as she watched her daughter endure the brutal torment possession by an evil spirit caused. Fear for her child’s safety haunted her. Tears were her constant companion. Sad helplessness enveloped her life. Relentlessly, she searched for answers, a reprieve, a hope to pierce their current darkness. Her daughter was wasting away. The light in her eyes had dimmed. The desire to live was gone. She was a shadow of her former self. Every day that passed was just another hopeless period in the bleak existence stretching out before them. Without a miracle, without hope, her daughter would surely die. 

Desperation had brought her to this place. Hiding around corners. Looking over her shoulder. Rehearsing her words for when Jesus appeared. She shouldn’t even be here. She knew that. She shouldn’t be lying in wait to ambush Him when He clearly wanted privacy. She shouldn’t be lurking outside a man’s dwelling. It wasn’t appropriate. She knew that. She also knew there was no alternative. Jesus was her only hope. Being Gentile hadn’t stopped her from hearing things about Him. He healed the sick. Restored sight to the blind. Cast out demons. That report immediately caught her attention. It was exactly what she needed. Search as she had, no one had ever been able to disentangle her daughter from the evil spirit. No prophet. No priest. No religious teacher. Jesus was her only option. Her final hope. It was still a long shot.  

Quietly exiting His temporary abode, Jesus was immediately met by the lurking Gentile woman. He was not surprised. He knew she was there. He knew why. He still didn’t even look her way. Not when she ran up to Him sobbing, begging, pleading. Not when she threw herself at His feet and poured out her heart. Not as her words toppled over one another, describing her daughter’s tragic situation, her own pain at being impotent to help, and her desperate hope that Jesus would do something, anything, to end their suffering. He didn’t say anything. Not one word. 

The woman probably should have been put off. Embarrassed. Ashamed of her outburst. Humiliated by the lack of response. But she wasn’t. She refused to be. There was nothing else. Nowhere else to go. No one else to consult. She had exhausted every other possibility. All her hope was in Jesus. Every ounce of it. She chose to place it there. And leave it there. Even when He didn’t seem to notice. Even when He didn’t bother to answer. Even when He gave no indication He had even heard. She didn’t move from that place. She didn’t stop asking. Didn’t stop seeking. Whether or not Jesus appeared to be listening, whether or not He chose to immediately act. She was going nowhere. Hope in His storied mercy and compassion had her rooted to that spot, crying out to Jesus for help. 

If Jesus could ignore the ruckus, the disciples absolutely could not. They were crazy annoyed. That woman needed to go. Now. She was obnoxious. Her caterwauling was interrupting their comfortable relaxation and pleasant conversation. While they weren’t about to lift a finger to help dispatch her, they definitely believed Jesus should. He needed to either fix her daughter or simply tell her to leave. They didn’t really care which one He chose. Either was fine with them. So long as the woman left. She was bugging them. Disturbing their peace. Interrupting their quiet. Driving them to distraction. The disciples said as much to Jesus, “Tell her to get out of here. Her constant whining is getting on our nerves.” (Matthew 15:23)

Responding to the disciples’ irritated urging, Jesus finally addressed the distraught woman. It wasn’t going to happen. As dire as her need was, as much sorrow as He felt for her plight, as much as His heart of compassion was moved for all people in desperate circumstances, He couldn’t help her. He wasn’t here for that. He wasn’t here to be everyone’s beck-and-call boy. He was sent to help God’s people. Jewish people. The house of Israel. He wasn’t sent to help the Gentiles. Although the words appear to be said gently, the slamming door of a “no” answer echoes from His lips in an air of sad finality. It looks like it is over. Finished. Ended. But only for a moment. The tenacious woman isn’t done. 

Hearing His initial answer, the woman remains undeterred. In fact, she pleads more intentionally. She pours more pain and grief into her request. She allows the sorrow of her soul to erupt from the depths of her being. Watching the last viable option for help slipping from her grasp, she vulnerably places her now fragile hope before Jesus and asks Him to do what she knows He can do. Deliver her daughter from evil. Please. Lord, help us. Heal my daughter if you will, but if you won’t, help me to carry on under the enormous burden of this situation. Give me wisdom and strength and courage to do the best I can by the child I have. 

I think that is what she was really saying when she fell on her knees and said, “Lord, help me.” She was acknowledging that Jesus might choose not to fulfill her request. But she wasn’t afraid to make a second request. Not specifically for healing, but for help. She knew her own strength was gone. She didn’t have the energy for this situation. If Jesus wasn’t going to change it, she hoped He would grant her the ability to continue under circumstances that were decidedly negative. And Jesus reiterated His “no.”

In verbiage everyone would consider insulting, Jesus informed the discouraged and disappointed woman that the bread He had to share was for the family table, not for the dogs at their feet. For the Jews, not the Gentiles. Not for her. She wasn’t worthy. But she already knew that. She knew this would be a long shot from the moment the idea entered her brain. And she wasn’t prepared to give up without a fight. 

When most of us would have tucked tail and run, given up entirely, gone home to mourn our losses and lick our wounds, this woman straightened her spine, dried her tears, and looked Jesus right in the eye. She had something to say. A comeback. A final salvo to fire before she accepted defeat. Jesus was right. The food on the table was for the family members. The dogs shouldn’t be allowed to rob the family of their daily bread. But. No family eats everything. Invariably, someone drops something on the ground. Crumbs. Crusts. Cruciferous vegetables. And the dogs can have all of that they want. That’s what she wanted. That’s what she was asking for. She wasn’t asking for the full meal. She was asking for the crumbs. She was asking just for what they needed to survive. She was asking that her hope be fulfilled, her faith be made sight. She was asking Jesus to miraculously prove that choosing to place her hope in Him hadn’t been a mistake. 

Something in her comeback flipped the script. You can almost see the laugh lines crinkle at the sides of Jesus’ eyes. He smiles. He capitulates. He gives her the miracle. Not because her argument is strong. Because her faith is. In the face of daunting obstacles, the Gentile mother staunchly chooses to place her hope in the power of God and her faith in His heart of compassion and refuses to budge. She doesn’t falter. She doesn’t bend. She doesn’t get discouraged and walk away. No. She stays there. Begging. Pleading. Arguing. Hoping. Praying for help in one form or another. Healing if Jesus chooses. Strength if He doesn’t. And she is rewarded with the proof of what the Apostle Paul writes to the Romans so many years later. Hope in God doesn’t disappoint. Even when it doesn’t give you exactly what you want. Even if the answer is “no.” (Matthew 15:21-28; Mark 7:24-30; Romans 5:5)

Admittedly, hope in God doesn’t always turn out exactly the way we imagine. When things go sideways, when life hands us situations we don’t know how to handle, when we straight up need a miracle, we come to God with options. We tell Him what He needs to do, when He needs to do it, and how it should be done. Instead of bringing our situations to Him and putting our hope in His infinite wisdom, unending goodness, and unfailing compassion, we bring our situations and a list of tightly micromanaged options for Him to choose from. We ask for exactly what we want, what seems best from our limited future view, and believe He hasn’t answered if we don’t get what we want. A “no” is not an answer for us. We refuse to hear anything but a “yes.” It is often to our detriment. (Isaiah 55:8-9; Ecclesiastes 11:5; Proverbs 16:9; Jeremiah 10:23; Philippians 2:13)

Before you were born, God knew you. He formed you. Body. Mind. Soul. He planned your life. Every breath of it. He knows your future. Every second of it. He comprehends exactly how what happens in your today will shape your tomorrows. And He is working out a plan. His plan. For you. Sometimes you will ask God for something, and He will say “no.” Not that person. Not that school. Not that house. Not that job. Sometimes the “no” will be about something else. Something bigger. Something harder. Something more painful. It will be the most difficult thing you ever hear from God. Crushed and broken, angry and unable to see a remote possibility for future happiness, you will be tempted to place your hope in someone or something else. Work. Money. Doctors. Success. You will be tempted to reject God and go it alone. Please don’t do it. Instead, with the distraught Gentile woman, resolve to place your hope in God’s heart of infinite wisdom and ultimate love. Stay at His feet, begging, seeking, asking for His help. Whatever that looks like for your situation. Don’t leave that place. Stay there and keep entreating. Keep asking for His help, His wisdom, His strength. When you think He isn’t listening, when you believe He isn’t hearing, when it feels like He isn’t working. Trust His heart. Even when God says “no”. (Psalm 18:30, 19:7, 139; Matthew 7:7-8; James 1:5; Luke 18:1-8; Romans 8:28)

Satisfied smiles wreathed every face as they stood back to admire their work. Houses lined the street. Their houses. On their street. In their city. Finally. It had been a long time coming. Sometimes they thought it never would. Often, it seemed they were destined to live the rest of their lives in exile. They were grateful it hadn’t been that way. Grateful for a new regime allowing them to return home and rebuild their lives. It had been a journey, but they had done it. Through blood, sweat, and tears, they erected the best houses they had ever inhabited. The dwellings of their dreams. Beautiful homes with every convenience imaginable. And they were still building. Houses for themselves, their sons, their daughters. They weren’t sure they would ever stop. Yet even as they hauled logs and sawed boards, they couldn’t avoid the niggling truth. Not all of their efforts had been successful.

Although the building efforts had gone spectacularly, the same could not be said for their farming endeavors. The fields they had carefully plowed and planted weren’t producing with any great abundance. Rain wasn’t falling. At least not as much as they needed. Morning dew had become non-existent. The crops were struggling at best, often failing. Feeding their families was a struggle. Their homes were beautiful, but their pantries were empty. And they didn’t know why. They couldn’t figure it out. Why had God allowed them to finally return to Jerusalem, to build fabulous homes, only to strike them with famine and drought? It seemed the greatest conundrum of their day. Until Haggai came along. 

Haggai knew exactly what was happening. And why. He had the inside line. God had spoken to him. Given him words for the people who were successfully building but failing at farming. It wasn’t a happenstance. It was a wake-up call. The people had gotten distracted. They had been so busy rebuilding their lives and building their homes that they had set aside the one thing that should have been more important than anything. They had forgotten their God. 

Maybe not entirely. It seems unlikely they had quit worshipping completely. They hadn’t purposely abandoned God and chosen a different deity to worship. They had not quit God. They had simply relegated Him to a place of lesser importance. Probably not intentionally. At least not at first. At first, they legitimately believed they were doing the right thing in building homes for themselves and planting crops to feed their families. Those things were urgent. They were good and right and necessary. But now they were done. The houses were built. The crops were planted. But the people were still busy making excuses for not beginning the work of rebuilding the temple of the Lord. 

Their houses needed winterized. Their crops, such as they were, needed harvested. The fields needed plowed in preparation for the next planting. There were animals to tend and children to raise. Water to be hauled from the local well. Their lives were busy. They had things to do. Good things. Real things. Necessary things. By the time they finished doing all their own things, there wasn’t time to think about or work on the things of God. Things like rebuilding the temple. With every excuse they made to procrastinate, the urgency they felt for the project became less. Finally, they were so busy keeping up with their newly developed lifestyle that they didn’t even notice the temple ruins. Didn’t mourn the loss. Didn’t miss attendance. Didn’t realize the disrespect they were giving to their God. 

It was time to set the record straight. God wasn’t having this. He wasn’t interested in fancy houses and flourishing fields where His name was never mentioned and His house remained destroyed. They were reaping the results of His dissatisfaction. Their harvests were poor. The rain didn’t come. The grain and grapes, and olives weren’t getting the nutrients they needed to flourish. Starvation seemed possible, even probable. Yet none of the people seemed to see the correlation. Their current choices determined their future prosperity. And they had chosen to create the illusion of material wealth while neglecting spiritual fortune. 

In a straightforward lecture through the prophet, Haggai, God told the people off. He was done with this. Why were they so invested in making their own homes fantastic, but wouldn’t lift a finger to repair His house? Not even a little bit. Did they not realize that in neglecting His house, they were neglecting Him? Had it never occurred to them that if they built His house and gave Him proper space in their hearts and lives, He would provide the rain and dew, increase the harvests, nourish the grapes and olives? Did they not yet understand that if they would devote themselves to God, He would be with them and bless them and care for them all the days of their lives? If they would build God’s house first, everything else would fall into place. The Lord of Heaven’s Armies had promised. (Haggai 1:1-11; I Samuel 2:30)

Suddenly, it all made sense. The drought. The famine. The struggle. It was their own fault. Their priorities were misaligned. Fear that their families would be left homeless and starving had forced them straight into taking care of themselves and putting off caring for God’s temple. They had let things slip. They had put their faith in their own abilities, trusted the work of their own hands more than the power of God’s promise. But not anymore. They were done with that. From this moment on they were throwing themselves fully under the protection of the promise that God was with them. Rebuilding the temple would take priority. Right now. Today.  This very moment they would gather their tools and make the trek into the forest to harvest logs and begin resurrecting the temple of God to its rightful glory. (Haggai 1:12-15)

For nearly a month they worked. Felling trees. Hauling logs. Sawing boards. Building the walls and restoring the structure. Yet even as the work progressed, discouragement descended. In spite of all they were doing, the temple didn’t look anything like it had. Their rough-hewn boards, erected by untrained hands, didn’t lend the breathtaking quality the skilled laborers had been able to give. It broke their hearts. Nearly broke their spirits. It felt as if they were failing, as if their work wasn’t enough. And they were tired. Physically worn. Mentally exhausted. Haunted by the growing list of the things they needed to do for their own survival. Some started spending a little more time at home. The work began to flag. Until God spoke again. 

Not in the same tone as before. Not with reprimand and rebuke. No. In words of love and encouragement to His people, God called them to get to work. Keep working. Don’t stop. Don’t be discouraged. The glory of the previous temple would come. In God’s time. In God’s way. He would do it. That was His job. Not theirs. Their task was to stay focused. Get to work. Keep faith in the promises of God. Don’t be distracted by earthly things. Prioritize the spiritual. Remembering this. You can build a breathtaking temple filled with intricate carvings, shining metals, and glistening gems, but if the spirit of God isn’t there, none of that matters. Honor God. Build His house according to the ability He has given you. Let Him fill it. He will. He is faithful that promised. (Haggai 2)

It would do us well to heed those same words. Not because we need to build a new church building. We don’t. There are plenty. God isn’t asking you to build another building. He is telling you to get to work repairing the one you have. Your personal temple. Your heart. His home. God is calling you to prioritize Him above everything else. All earthly endeavors. All efforts to establish prosperity and prominence. All attempts to stack up earthly goods, material treasures, and social accolades. God is calling you to shore up the edges of your sagging spiritual existence. Get right with Him. Put Him first. Allow Him to work for and in and through you. Just like He promised. Trust Him to take care of you. Be brave and get to work. Because if the necessary repairs to the church universal are going to happen, repairs to the church personal must first occur. (Exodus 20:3; Proverbs 3:6; Acts 3:19-20; Matthew 6:19-21,33)

There is no avoiding that the church of today is not what it was in the Book of Acts. Peter and Paul would have strong words for us. So would Haggai. Words we very much need to hear. We have become complacent. We have allowed our earthly lives to usurp the priority of our spiritual lives. We have lowered our standards, replaced our convictions, altered the ramifications of disobedience. Spiritual drought has set in. Fear of social pushback has silenced our voices. Yet it is into that silence God speaks. Calling us to wake up, step up, and get to work. On ourselves. Our own hearts. Our own sins. Tighten up the spaces in us that have fallen slack. Clean up the areas that have become cluttered with worldly things. Get right with God. Put Him first. Accept His authority over our lives. Then get to work on our churches. Turn the focus back to Him. Prioritize His presence, His power, His preeminence. Make God’s church a place for God’s people to worship God and hear Him speak. Only Him. Don’t let the world clutter the space or muddy His words. Don’t let anyone, preacher or deacon or well-meaning congregant, alter the truth of His Word. Focus on God. Alone. Put Him first. Allow Him to work for and in and through His church, spreading His love and grace throughout the surrounding community. Get to work, do your part, and watch God build a glorious church full of people who prioritize Him. (Matthew 5:19; Isaiah 1:16-17; Deuteronomy 28:1-68; Revelation 2-3; Ephesians 5:27)