Jesus Isn't Decaf (By Naomi Meyers)

“I’m sorry. We’ve exhausted all our options. There’s nothing more we can do.” The physician’s words echoed in the still, emptiness of the room. Her heart sunk in hopeless disappointment. She didn’t let it show on her face. Desperate tears burned the backs of her eyes. She didn’t let them roll down her cheeks. Panic twisted her stomach, inducing the urge to run. She didn’t allow herself that luxury. This situation wasn’t new. She’d heard those words before. Lots of times. At least 12 times, the same number of years she’d been seeing doctor after doctor, seeking a diagnosis, a cure for her continually worsening condition. 

Hope, the tiny glimmer she’d had upon entrance to this appointment, died a miserable, instantaneous death. There was nothing left to hope for. There were no doctors left to see.  She’d seen them. There were no treatments left to try. She’d tried them. There was no money left. Her last coin now sat in the hand of a doctor who had told her only what every other doctor before him had said. There was no help, no hope. 

Drawing a stabilizing breath, she stepped out the door and turned toward home. It would be a long walk. She was exhausted. She was weak. She felt broken. She knew her heart was. The illness had taken its toll. Physically failing, emotionally spent, her mind began to badger her with questions she couldn’t answer. What would happen now? How would she live? Would she live at all?  

As she passed through town, an enormous commotion drew her attention. A large crowd had already gathered in the center of town and seemed to be multiplying by the second. Shopkeepers were standing in their doorways watching the hubbub. She sighed. She needed to get through, but the crowd was intimidating for a woman who had no strength, no stature, no stamina. Looking for a place to rest until the uproar died down, she ducked into a nearby doorway. As she stood there watching the teeming crowd, the conversation of some nearby shopkeepers caught her attention. Jesus of Nazareth was in town. 

Her mind raced. Her heart pounded. Jesus was in town? She’d heard all about Him. Everyone had. He was amazing. Teaching in the Temple. Casting out demons. Raising the dead. Healing the sick. The answer she didn’t have moments before was now standing just on the other side of the crowd. She had to get to Him. He was her last hope, her only hope. He was the answer she had spent twelve fruitless years and countless dollars trying to find. Touching Jesus was her only option. 

But how? How could a frail woman get through that crowd of able-bodied men?  How could she breach the circle of His disciples around Him?  What if she got crushed in the press? What if she got injured in the struggle? What if she got trampled by the masses? It didn’t matter. She would touch Him or die trying. Her life depended on it. 

Gathering the remnants of her waning strength, she carefully joined the edges of the crowd and began her journey. She sidestepped a few people, wiggled between a few others. Every spot that opened in front of her, she filled. Pausing a moment to catch her breath, she noticed she was only about halfway through the crowd. The densest sea of bodies was in front of her. Lifting her chin in sheer determination, she continued her trek.  She was panting, her heart was pounding as if she’d run a marathon. Only desperation kept her going. And she was desperate. Desperate to touch Jesus. 

Dodging flailing arms and stomping feet, she continues her journey. A painful elbow to the ribs doesn’t stop her. A shove sideways doesn’t deter her. She’s reached the last few feet. She can see His back. She can also hear Jairus begging Jesus to come heal his daughter. She hears Him agree. It feels like a physical blow. Her faith flickers, nearly dies. If He starts to move now, she’ll never reach Him. The row of men between her and Jesus is so tight, so unforgiving, she nearly cries out in despair. The tears that didn’t fall before now blur her vision. She pauses in indecision. Should she continue the struggle, or turn back? 

In that one paralyzed moment, as she agonizes over how to reach Him, the press of the crowd overtakes her. It was just what she needed. Rocketed between the men in front of her, she finds herself in an undignified sprawl in the dirt. Embarrassed, she looks up to see if anyone has noticed, but she doesn’t see faces, she sees a hem. The hem of Jesus’ garment as He begins to walk away. In a decision borne of desperate faith, her hand flashes out and just glances off the hem of His robe. She didn’t pull, didn’t grab hold. Just a quick touch. And she was healed. She felt it. Knew it. No matter the struggle, the frustration, the pain, touching Jesus was worth every second. 

But it didn’t go unnoticed. Jesus, knowing she had touched Him and been healed, turns around to the crowd and demands the person own up to their actions. The disciples, in disbelief, wonder how in the world He could possibly know one specific person touched Him. Many people had touched Him as they jostled along among the crowd. Jesus insists. Knowing in her soul that she cannot hide, she timidly admits her faithful act. Jesus’ response brings tears to my eyes every time.  He calls her “Daughter.” Commends her faith. Pronounces her “healed”. (Matthew 9:19-22; Mark 5:24-34, Luke 8:43-48) Touching Jesus was absolutely worth everything her desperate soul and broken body endured.

As I sit quietly wiping tears and absorbing this story, I find myself in the uncomfortable position of needing to answer this question, “How desperate am I to touch Jesus?” With all the situations beyond my control, problems that don’t seem to have answers, prayers I’ve been praying for years for people who don’t seem to care, how desperate am I to truly touch Jesus for those things? When I’m trudging through a spiritual desert, how desperately do I reach out to touch Jesus? Do I stay in prayer like Jacob, refusing to leave His presence without the blessing of His Divine approval? (Genesis 32:22-32)  Do I ask and keep on asking, seek and keep on seeking, knock and keep on knocking? (Matthew 7:7) Or do I let the busyness of the day, the pleasures of the world, the worries of life draw me away before I truly touch Him? (Mark 4:19) Do I wholeheartedly believe that touching Jesus is worth sacrifice, struggle, and tears?

Do you? Do you believe the answer to your situation can be found in touching Jesus? Do you believe it is the only answer to your deepest need, your darkest dilemma? Or do you spend hours on the phone, on social media, at coffee klatches spilling your issues, problems, cares, concerns to all and sundry? Do you reach out to people first, Jesus second? People who can’t help, can’t change hearts or mend situations. People who are as impotent as you are to make the miraculous happen. How desperate are you to touch Jesus?

I don’t know what’s plaguing your mind or heart today. Maybe it’s your own sin. Maybe it’s a child, a sibling, a parent straying from God. Maybe it’s a burden for a country far from the faith it once held dear. Maybe it’s a missionary, a preacher, a friend in the throes of dark spiritual trial. Maybe it’s you, your own personal crisis of faith. Maybe you’ve been struggling with the same issue, bearing the same burden for years. Maybe it feels too much, too heavy, too useless. Maybe you feel you’ve done everything you can. Maybe you want to quit. I know those feelings. I’m there too. I also know this–the answer to every struggle, every situation, every issue, temptation, frustration, and fear lies in touching Jesus.  

So get on your knees, get in your prayer closet, cry out to Jesus. Don’t stop until you touch Him. (I Thessalonians 5:17) Touch Jesus and allow Him to change your life. Touch Jesus for that soul who is straying. Touch Jesus for a country far off course. Touch Jesus in faith, expecting Him to work. And He will answer. He will work. (Jeremiah 33:3; Psalm 91:15) And you will find, touching Jesus is absolutely, unquestionably the single most important thing you will ever do.