Jesus Isn't Decaf (By Naomi Meyers)

The words rushed over him like a rogue wave, knocking him off balance and carrying him into waters he had no desire to tread. He wasn’t sure how to respond. In his three years of travels with Jesus, he’d heard a million words and a thousand voice inflections. Compassion. Frustration. Exasperation. He’d seen Jesus angry as He cleansed the temple. Heard His sadness as He mourned the spiritual state of His people. Listened to His love as He encouraged people to find rest for their souls in Him. None of those moments sounded like this. The tone was different. Warning laced with hope. It grabbed Peter’s attention and set off his alarm bells, but it didn’t alter his penchant for the impetuous. (Matthew 11:28-29, 23:37-39; Mark 11:15-18)

Jesus clearly had the wrong guy. It sounded like Jesus was implying Peter was going to fall away from the faith and turn away from following Jesus. Yeah. No. That wasn’t happening. Peter would never do that. He was going the distance with Jesus. Every. Single. Step. Accusations. Imprisonment. Punishment. Death. Peter wasn’t going to leave Jesus’ side. He wasn’t going to betray Him, deny Him, defy Him. There would never be a moment when he wasn’t following hard after God. Never. Not in this lifetime. Peter said so. But Jesus knew differently.  

It was the reason He issued the warning in the first place. Satan was gunning for Peter. He wanted to beat and shake and toss Peter like proverbial wheat. He wanted to challenge his faith. Test his resolve. Shake his soul. And God wasn’t planning to stop him. As risky as it was given Peter’s history of impulsivity, God would allow the tests to come. This was Peter’s warning. Terrifically difficult spiritual times were coming. He would struggle. He would falter. He would fail. But. Jesus was praying for him. Praying that he wouldn’t completely abandon his faith. Praying that, even if he got off course, even if he leapt before he looked, even if his words left the blocks before his brain sounded the starting blast, Peter would come back. Back to God. Back to a place of repentance and reconciliation. Back to the faith that could carry him through every storm of life. And once he was back, Jesus prayed he would strengthen the faith of others. (Luke 22:31)

Quickly, in his normal rash fashion, Peter assured Jesus he was ready for the test. So ready. He was robust and resilient. He was poised and prepared. He was alert and aware. Nothing could catch him off guard. Nothing would make him turn aside or away from following Jesus. His faith may have wobbled in the past, but it was iron-strong now. He was going all the way. He wouldn’t leave Jesus’ side. Ever. If Jesus would allow Him to go along to the place He said Peter couldn’t go right now, the space Jesus was preparing for them in eternity, Peter was absolutely up for it. “Let’s go, Jesus. Right now. You and me. I’m here for all of it!” (John 13:36-38, 14:3)

In a quiet voice, reverberating with sad resolve, Jesus broke the hard truth to Peter. It wouldn’t go down that way. In a few short hours, when the world he knew exploded into chaos, when people came to haul Jesus away to a ridiculous excuse for a trial, beatings, and a gruesome death on a rough-hewn cross, Peter would crack under the pressure. He would fall apart, aside, away. Before sunrise, when the rooster crowed to wake the world, Peter would deny even being acquainted with Jesus. At all. Not once. Not twice. Three times. But Jesus was still praying for him. (Luke 22:33-34)

Knowing Peter would vehemently deny Him, violently disclaim Him, vociferously dismiss their association, Jesus still prayed for him. Prayed the devil wouldn’t win the war. Prayed that Peter wouldn’t allow this failure to define his future. Prayed that his faith, the little mustard seed planted in the depths of his soul, would bring him back to the way of God. Prayed that, although he had not completely withstood the test, although he had made a mess of things, although he was obviously a work in progress, Peter would return in repentance and reconciliation and use his experiences to strengthen the faith and determination of those around him. 

Standing in the courtyard vigorously contesting his acquaintance with Jesus, Peter was shocked to hear the rooster call his announcement of another day. Across the crowd, their eyes collided. Jesus’ saddened look with Peter’s agonized gaze. The world seemed to slow and crash to a halt around Peter. What Jesus said would happen had, indeed, occurred. Peter had done the thing he vowed not to do. He had failed in the face of temptation, trouble, trial, and torture. Unable to stand the thought of his magnificent failure, unwilling to watch the impending horror unfold, Peter turned on his heel and fled. 

There is no record of where Peter’s flight ended. Maybe he only made it to the corner of the next building. Maybe he hid in an alley. Maybe he fled the entire way to Gethsemane, where Jesus admonished them to watch and pray so they wouldn’t fall prey to temptation. It isn’t important. Where Peter went doesn’t matter, what he did there does. Peter wept. Bitterly. Wretchedly. Agonizingly. In distress and regret, self-recrimination and spiritual flagellation, Peter fell to the ground, buried his face in his knees, and sobbed. He hadn’t meant to do that. Had no intention of failing. Didn’t think he had the capacity. He intended to follow Jesus to death. As long as it was a theoretical future event. He hadn’t actually thought it would happen. The reality was so much scarier than he realized it would be. The ramifications of admitting association with Jesus were enormous. Faced with the very real choice of life or death, Peter forgot all the miracles Jesus had done. He forgot the omnipotence of the Father. He allowed the fear to capsize his faith. And he regretted it. 

Kneeling there alone, shaken and shattered by his own failures and shortcomings, Peter wept out his grief and shame to God, finding reconciliation with the Father through the prayers of Jesus the Son. Prayers Jesus had been praying for Peter long before Peter even recognized his need for them. Deep, urgent beseeching of God for his soul. Moaning and groaning, tears and pleading, begging that Peter’s faith, no matter how small and seemingly insignificant, wouldn’t completely shrivel up and die. Prayers that in spite of the trials and temptations barrelling Peter’s direction, he would find that little seed of faith in the depths of his soul and stand on it. Build his spiritual house around it. Prayers that Peter, washed up in a storm of life,  would come out swinging, growing in faith and grace to be a spiritual powerhouse through which Jesus could and would begin building his church. (Matthew 16:18) 

I don’t know about you, but I take great comfort in this thought. Jesus is praying for me. Not just speaking quick words as He runs off to monitor the most recent global crisis. No. He’s spending time in prayer for me. Serious prayer. Urgent, desperate intercession. He is on His knees before the Father. His words come out in a nearly indecipherable groan. Tears flow down His face. His heart is laid bare before the Father begging for what I need. Not my wants. Not the tiny things my microscopic mind desires. Not what I hope He will give me. The prayers of the Son to the Father are so much more than that. Through the wide lens of God’s future view, Jesus looks at the entire picture of my life and knows exactly what I need for my crisis today and my faith in the future. His prayers are for God’s will to be done in my life, to strengthen my faith, and encourage my heart. As I endure the trials and testings of life, as I am pounded and tossed like the ancient grains of wheat, as the evil one does everything in his power to steal my heart away from God the Father, Jesus the Son is praying for me. Praying that my faith will not fail. 

Friend, there is no thought more precious. Jesus thinks about you. Constantly. He sees your future. Acknowledges the trials, troubles, and temptations that are already lining up against you. He notices every little thing that has the ability to knock you down and the capacity to keep you there. And Jesus is praying about them, over them, around them. For you. It won’t stop the storms. They are coming. Life is made up of them. But Jesus is praying for you. Praying that when those times come, when everything spins out of control in every part of your life, that your faith will be robust enough to weather the storm. He’s praying that when trials knock you down, you’ll get back up. He’s praying you will share your faith with others, encouraging them to keep going when things look bleak and they want to quit. He’s praying you’ll remember these things: You may be down, but you aren’t out. Your faith may wobble, but it doesn’t need to fail. Your strength may wane, your heart fail, your flesh struggle, but you are not alone. When words fail you, when your thoughts won’t line up, when it seems your faith is beyond repair, do not give up. Jesus has been praying over this exact moment your entire life. And He is still praying. For you. (Romans 8:26-27, 34; Hebrews 7:25; I John 2:1; John 17; Psalm 34:17-18, 73:26, 139:17; I Peter 4:12; Hebrews 10:35; Acts 14:22; Galatians 6;9; II Chronicles 15:7)

She should have returned long ago. Better yet, they should never have left. Not for any reason. Not even the famine that gripped their land. Never should she have mildly packed up her belongings, bid goodbye to her friends, stifled her sobs, harnessed her tears, and set out behind her husband and sons to a new land. Not without a discussion. A long one. One in which every possible outcome had been thoroughly examined. It hadn’t happened. There had been no discussion. Elimelech decided to leave, and they went. She didn’t challenge him. It wasn’t how things were done. Wives didn’t disagree with their husbands. Wives were obedient and biddable, not argumentative and questioning. In retrospect, Naomi wished she had put up a proper fuss.

Nothing good had come of her time in Moab. Death stole her husband and robbed her of her sons. In just a few years, she lost everything important to her. More aptly, God had taken away everything she loved. That’s how she felt. God, who could give in great abundance, had taken with outrageous abandonment. Her heart was shattered. Her life was empty. She had nothing left. Nothing except a couple Moabite daughters-in-law. Her friends, if she still had any, were back in Bethlehem. The life she knew, the people she was comfortable with, the traditions she held dear, were all back home. There was nothing left for her in Moab. She needed to leave. Needed to go back home. She had heard positive things. 

The famine that had encouraged Elimelech to bring them on this god-forsaken adventure had abated. God had looked down on His people. He heard their prayers for help. He paid attention to their needs. He was actively providing food. Things were balancing out over in Bethlehem. It was time to go home. Time to sort through the belongings she had collected in Moab. Time to determine what was necessary and what wasn’t. Time to pack her bags, strap on her sturdiest sandals, and make the trek back home. 

Sadly, she’d need to leave the girls behind. As much as she loved them, it wasn’t fair for them to follow her home to a place they knew nothing about. New customs. New religion. They might be outcasts there. Unaccepted. Derided. Abused. And there was no reason for them to stay. Naomi wasn’t getting another husband. She wasn’t even interested in that. Even if she did, her childbearing years were past. She wasn’t interested in that, either. Even if she was, Ruth and Orpah were still young women. They weren’t going to wait around for her to meet a man, have a son, raise him to manhood, just so they could stay in her family. That would be ridiculous! The wisest thing for them to do was go back to their parents’ homes. Perhaps a man from among their own people would marry them and give them a home and children. 

At first, they resisted. They weren’t going anywhere. They loved Naomi and planned to stay. They would accompany her home. Start a new life in her hometown just as she had in theirs. This time Naomi had the discussion. By the time she was done presenting the hard truths, Orpah chose to leave. Ruth wasn’t budging. Not toward home, anyway. Her mind was made up. The matter was settled. She was going to Bethlehem. She would acclimate to a new culture and fit in with new people. She would leave the gods of Moab behind and happily embrace the God of Naomi. She would follow Naomi to death, be there to care for and help her. When her final breath was taken, Ruth would be the one holding her hand. Chin tilted in determination, Ruth stared Naomi down until she acquiesced. They were going together. Nothing would separate them. But being together didn’t solve all their problems. 

Arriving back in Bethlehem, the women of the town were excited about their arrival. They couldn’t believe Naomi was back. They were happy to listen to tales of her travels. Rejoiced to see her alive. Wept over her losses. Happily met her daughter-in-law. Yet oddly lacking in the Biblical account is how the needs of Naomi and Ruth would be met. Their husbands were dead. They were on their own. Where were they going to live? What were they going to eat? How were they to afford their daily needs? And the townspeople, excited as they were to see Naomi and hear her news, are not recorded as offering help. No one offered a night at the local bed and breakfast. No one organized a meal train. No one expressed concern over how they would survive. In short, everyone wanted to hear the stories, but no one offered to help. Home or not, they were still very much on their own. (Ruth 1)

Determined to rectify their situation, Ruth decided to venture into the surrounding barley fields to see what the harvesters had left behind. It was harvest season. Inevitable, some got dropped on the ground and forgotten. If God was still paying attention to the needs of His people, perhaps she would find enough leftovers to sustain herself and Naomi. Maybe she could find extra to sell at the market. Perhaps she could get them through their personal famine and ward off starvation. At least for a while. 

Not by chance, Ruth landed in the field of Boaz. She didn’t know who he was. Had no idea he was a relative of her late father-in-law. Was clueless that he was someone who could help her little family of two. Asking permission first, she began to glean behind the harvesters, keeping to herself and attempting to be inconspicuous. But Boaz noticed her presence. He knew all his workers. Male. Female. He hadn’t seen her before, but he knew all about her. He knew what she had sacrificed to follow and care for Naomi. He respected her faithfulness and integrity. And he wanted her to stay. Glean only with his harvesters. Gather as much as she could. Come back day after day. Relax. She was safe there. He promised. (Ruth 2)

Hearing the story later, Naomi began hatching a plan. She wanted to make sure Ruth’s future was secure. And harvest wouldn’t last forever. This good fortune would come to an end. So, using her powers of persuasion, she sent Ruth to propose to Boaz. Or propose that he propose to her. Either way, it wasn’t a comfortable thing to do. Ruth wouldn’t ordinarily put herself in that position. She almost threw up from nerves before she even arrived. This could go in any direction. Maybe he’d agree to her plan. Maybe he wouldn’t. Maybe he would kick her out loudly for all to see, tarnishing her reputation. Maybe he would sneak her out under the cover of darkness. Nothing was certain. Nothing except for the fact that, just as He had through the local famine in Bethlehem and the personal famine of Ruth and Naomi, God was paying attention to their needs. He was actively seeing her predicament. And God was working. 

Interestingly, Boaz was not put off by Ruth’s unorthodox methods. He was cautious, but interested. Everything must pass through the proper channels. Anyone else in line to claim both the property and the woman deserved the opportunity to do so. It couldn’t be decided right then. They would have to wait for the decision. It was nerve-wracking. For Ruth, at least. Sneaking home in the pre-dawn darkness, Ruth felt the worry and anxiety of her situation and what she had just done settle over her. What if Boaz changed his mind? What if the other guy decided he wanted to stake his claim? What if he was a horrible man with a temper and a penchant for using his fists? What if no one wanted her and she became the town harlot? What was going to happen if none of this worked and they were left to struggle their way through the rest of their years on earth? 

Speaking from years of watching God do His thing, Naomi spoke. “Calm down. Be patient. It will all be settled soon. You will have your answer. Wait. And while you wait, trust that the God who sees your needs is not passively watching, but actively participating in every decision that concerns His people.” It was a lesson she had learned over time. As bitter as the events of her life had been, she could still look back and see how God had been actively at work in her life. She had never been completely alone. When her husband had died, she had her sons. When her sons had died, she had her daughters-in-law. When Orpah had returned to her family home, Ruth stayed. God had never allowed her to be alone. He had actively been taking care of her even when she couldn’t see it, when her soul was steeped in grief and mourning. Not one part of Naomi doubted that this situation would be any different. Whether she directly told Ruth to trust God or not, it is the underlying message of the words. Man can be unpredictable, but God never is. He leaves nothing to chance, because we are all part of something bigger, something better, than we can even dream or imagine. (Ruth 3)

God left nothing to chance in Ruth’s world. When the wait was finally over, Boaz became their redeemer. He bought the land from Naomi. He took Ruth as his wife. They were safely cared for the rest of their lives. And Ruth had a son. They named him Obed. He fathered a son named Jesse. The father of David. And twenty-eight generations later, in the same town, from the same lineage came Jesus. The Messiah. The Savior of the world. Not by some strange twist of fate or happenstance. Not through a series of unfortunate events. No. Not by chance at all, but by the active plan of God. Because nothing happens by chance in God’s world. (Ruth 4; Matthew 1:1-16; Proverbs 16:33; Psalm 103:19)

Everything that happened then was part of a grand heavenly plan to bring Jesus into the world. Not strictly through pure bloodlines and perfect parentage, but through a heritage that included everyone. Saints and sinners alike. It was not by chance that Boaz’s mother was Rahab, the prostitute. It was not an accident that Obed’s mother was a Moabitess. It was the grand plan of God for you and me that everyone would be welcomed into the family of God. No matter who you are or what your heritage is. When it seemed to the people of Naomi’s day that God wasn’t paying attention to the famine in the land. When Naomi felt He had stolen her joy and left her bitter with grief and sorrow. When Ruth worried about the outcome of her spontaneous actions. God was paying attention to each thing. He was actively working and moving, and doing. He was using those situations and circumstances to enact His plan for His people in His world. A plan of salvation. A plan of love. A carefully orchestrated plan to point every soul, everywhere, to Himself. Not one thing was left to chance. Because nothing happens by chance in God’s world. And it is all God’s world. (Psalm 24:1; Colossians 1:16; Nehemiah 9:6; Acts 17:24-25)

From the beautiful dawn of creation to the devastating downward spiral of this 21st-century society, God has been in charge. This is His world. Always has been. Always will be. He is sovereign. Nothing takes Him by surprise. Not the antics of politicians. Not the vitriol of world leaders. Not our disappearing resources or our depleting strength. He knew it what would happen long before it did. He is not confused when you make a poor choice. He is not caught off guard when war breaks out. He does not become frantic when things on earth take a left turn. No, friend. God is calmly, confidently working through all the frustrating situations and horrible circumstances on earth to bring about what He planned from the beginning of time. For the world at large. For you individually. 

See, God knew you before you were born. He knew every twist and turn your life would take. He knew every fear you would have, every victory you would win, every choice you would make. He planned for them. Every incident in your life–pleasant or bitter–is being used to work out God’s plan for you. But you have to trust Him. You have to believe that God is paying attention to your needs and actively working for you. Even if the famine doesn’t end. Even if the proposal fails. You have to cast your faith in the God who is actively, intentionally making all things new and trust His heart of never-ending love for you. You have to believe He is still working. Even when He is quiet. Even when you can’t see it. Even when you can’t hear His voice or feel His touch. Because your world is God’s world and nothing happens there by chance. Not. One. Thing. (Ephesians 2:10; II Corinthians 4:17-18; Psalm 139:13-18; Joel 2:25; Deuteronomy 30:3; Revelation 21:5)

God didn’t accidentally create you. He didn’t forget your gifts or talents. He didn’t do a haphazard job and then recklessly toss you into the world without a care for who you are or what you would become. No. You were meticulously crafted in His own image. He has a plan and a purpose for your life. And He is working it out. Through all those trials and troubles. Through all the worry and stress. Through all the fear and uncertainty. God is working. He is active. So wait for Him. Find solace in the knowledge that God leaves not one detail to chance. Refuse to be anxious. The God who planned your life centuries before you were even conceived is paying attention to your needs. He hears your cries for help. His answer will come. At just the right time, in just the right way, a carefully curated response to your need will arrive. You can trust Him. He will make all things new. Not by chance, but according to the beautiful plan He created just for you. (Psalm 37:23, 145:19; Isaiah 46:9-10; Proverbs 21:1; Genesis 1:26-27; Jeremiah 29:11; Philippians 1:6)

It wasn’t the first time someone had asked the question. It wouldn’t be the last. It may, however, be the final time someone had the nerve to lace the words with this specific undertone. False humility with a heavy side of superiority. “What do I need to do on earth to receive eternal life in death?” It was obviously a test. An attempt to measure Jesus’ knowledge and agreement with their law. A way to determine if His teaching matched their beliefs. The answer was critical. Steadily holding the man’s gaze above the heads of those seated between them, Jesus responded with a question of his own. One, the man should have no problem answering, given his educational status. What did the law say they should do? What was his personal interpretation? Without pause, the man offered up the answer every self-respecting religious person would, “Love God with every part of your being. Love your neighbor as you love yourself.” 

As answers go, he couldn’t have been more accurate. According to the law and according to Jesus. But he had a follow-up question. One that wasn’t specifically covered in the law handed down through Moses. “Who, exactly, is my neighbor?” Who do I need to love well? Who must I care for? To whom am I obligated to offer compassion and understanding? The people next door? Everyone on my street? Those of the same lineage? The right heritage? The Jews? The Gentiles? Please, Jesus, don’t make it those other people whose name shall remain unspoken? Arrogance and superiority faded as the man stood, expectantly waiting for his answer. And Jesus, overlooking his impatience, launched into a story.   

One day, a man was travelling from Jerusalem to Judea. He knew the route before he left. The path as well as the surrounding terrain. He knew the danger. Having weighed the options, he chose the path for its expediency, not its safety. He had taken every precaution. Carefully, he packed his things. Secreted his valuables in hidden pockets of his robe. Tied his money belt securely under his outer garment. From the outside, he looked like an ordinary man headed on an ordinary trip. Inside, he knew the possible dangers ahead. Blind curves hide bands of brutal robbers. Steep drops, thick brush, sharp rocks. All things that made hiding a body easy. If they even cared. The robbers lacked any form of moral fiber, stopping at nothing to steal from those making an honest living rather than work honestly themselves. They had no mercy. They would steal no matter the cost. One’s life was never more important than their potential loot. And there were few, if any, ramifications for their behavior. Still, knowing the road between the two cities was strictly traveled at one’s own risk, the man chose that treacherous path. 

Not far into his journey, all the man’s fears were recognized. Rounding a particularly steep, hairpin curve, he was attacked by a band of thieves. The odds were against him. He didn’t stand a chance. Desperately searching for everything of value hidden on his person, the robbers yanked off his robe, jerked off his money belt, searched every possible fold of fabric for hidden treasure. Then, rather than just make off with the loot, they took the time to beat him. Severely. Grabbing his arms, one man held him powerless as the others landed blow after relentless blow. Pain ricocheted through him as his nose was broken. His lip split and swelled. Both eyes were blackened. Cuts and bruises covered his body. Blood ran down his face and chest. When finally he drifted from consciousness, the robbers tossed his limp body into a ditch by the side of the road and gleefully made off with their ill-gotten gains.  

He would have died there, despite the procession of passersby. Although largely unconscious, his intense fear prohibited him from crying out even in his lucid moments. Not everyone noticed him there. Some were walking on the other side of the road and missed him. Some were deep in conversation with their traveling companions. Others were simply too grossed out to help. They came, looked at his broken self, and walked away. Like the priest. He was aghast at the sight. He could barely drag his eyes away. It was disgusting. Disturbing. Distracting. Not knowing if the man was dead or alive, he didn’t even stop to check. Didn’t speak to him. Didn’t touch him. Quickly, he decided it wasn’t his responsibility. He was a priest, after all. He couldn’t risk touching a dead body. Averting his eyes from the horrible sight, he scurried to the opposite side of the road and continued his journey. The Levite who came along after him did the same thing. Maybe for the same reasons. Maybe for different ones. Maybe he wasn’t sure if the man was a Jew or not. Maybe he wasn’t certain it wasn’t one of the robbers who had gotten his due after double-crossing his mates. Maybe, staring into the possibility of his fate being the same and overcome by the reality of his own mortality, the Levite’s fear overcame him and he, too, crossed the road and hurried on his way. 

Time passed. Perhaps minutes. Maybe hours. Enough that the wounded man’s injuries severely impacted his chances of survival. His breathing had become erratic. The few waking seconds had revealed pain so intense that he welcomed the return of the enveloping darkness. Nearing the crossing between this life and the next, the dying man didn’t hear the clip-clop hooves of an approaching donkey. He didn’t see the man walking along the road. Didn’t notice his clothes, his wealth, his social status. He didn’t even try to open his eyes. Not as the man stopped to check on him. Not when he pulled out his first aid kit and began washing and dressing his wounds. Not as he was carefully lifted, wrapped in the man’s own cloak, loaded on his donkey, and hauled into town. Approaching the nearest inn, his savior booked a room and spent the night nursing him to stability. The physical wounds would take a few weeks to heal. The mental scars would take longer. That was okay. He didn’t need to go anywhere. The man who stopped to save his life had to leave, but he could stay. For as long as he needed. His bill was covered. By a Samaritan. (Luke 10:25-37)

It would have been quite a shock for a Jewish man to discover his savior was a Samaritan. No one was more repulsive. There was an unwritten no-contact order between them. If the tables were turned, it is unlikely the currently convalescing man would have stopped to help the other. But that was then. That was before. Before the man had experienced the love of a neighbor, the way it was meant to be. Love that treated him not only how the Samaritan would want to be treated, but how the Samaritan himself had experienced love. 

For as long as I can remember, this parable has been used to encourage us to treat others the way we want to be treated. That may not be incorrect. But recently, I have begun to wonder if we have missed something. Lost something in translation. Have we focused so much on “loving your neighbor as you love yourself,” that we missed the real meaning of the words? Is it possible, probable even, that Jesus’ actual words meant, “Love others the way you have been loved?” By God. With exquisite tenderness, unending kindness, unfathomable grace. Look on one another with eyes of compassion. See yourself in the injured and infirm, those on the fringes of society, the lost souls, the least respected, the frequently rejected. Feel their pain and, rather than judge from a distance and excuse yourself from rendering aid, respond with the same love, compassion, and care you have received. From God. Because loving your neighbor isn’t about how much you love yourself. It’s about how much you have been loved. And that is abundant. Because you were once that half-dead traveler. (John 13:34)

 At one point or another, you were cautiously picking your way through life, hoping to make the right decisions, seeking to further yourself, your ambitions, your hopes, your dreams. You were the one set upon by the thief who comes to steal and kill and destroy. Your hope. Your dreams. Your joy. You found yourself spiritually broken and left for dead by the side of life’s road. You were not pretty. There was nothing about you that would draw anyone to your side. In fact, plenty of people saw your fall from grace and chose to pass by, forming judgments, spouting opinions, doing more damage to your already bruised and battered heart. You didn’t believe help would come. Then Jesus showed up. Maybe you didn’t recognize Him at first. Didn’t hear the dulcet tone of His voice as He called you His beloved. Maybe you were afraid to trust His words because your love for yourself was non-existent. You hated what you had become. Maybe you were scared to put yourself in His care, worried that He would require more than you had to give. Which was nothing. You had nothing left. No strength. No courage. No faith. Yet, in the back of your mind, you knew there was no other way you were getting out of that ditch. So you made a choice. (John 10:10; Song of Solomon 6:3)

Looking into eyes brimming with compassion, you tentatively placed your hand in His outstretched one. As your fingers touched, you looked down and noticed something. His hand was scarred, too. In that moment, you knew. He had been where you were. Bruised and beaten, slaughtered by the best efforts of the devil to triumph over the souls of mankind, but He hadn’t let hell win. He’d triumphed. Overall of it. Death. Grave. Hell. The steadfast, unmovable, faithful love of the Father had carried Him. The same love now flows through Him and over you. Not because of who you were or what you had done, but because Jesus loved you with the same love He had known. The love of God that transcends our circumstances, our situations, our sins. Love that offers us life when the enemy thinks he has sealed our death. Love of God spread so heavily in our hearts that it flows out of us and onto the people we meet. Everyone. Everywhere. They are all our neighbors. Each one deserves to experience the love of God we ourselves have known. And it should come through us. (Romans 5:5; Psalm 103:1-22)

It hasn’t happened. Not everyone knows this love. That’s our fault. We haven’t loved others the way we have been loved. Not our friends. Not our enemies. Not our neighbors. We haven’t loved unconditionally. When people meet our standards and expectations. When they don’t. When we understand them. When we don’t. When they are struggling, striving, seeking, sobbing. When they are soaring. We haven’t silently sat in the suffering of others. We haven’t cared for their grief, wiped their tears, held their hand. We haven’t truly loved. Real, true, genuine love is gentle, tender, compassionate, kind. It holds our hearts in careful hands, offering courage and strength, help and hope. It is not judgmental. It is firm and honest, but never harsh. It is everything we read in I Corinthians 13, but fail to embody in everyday life. It is how we should treat every person we meet. With the same love God has loved us. (I Corinthians 13:4-8; Colossians 4:6; Ephesians 4:32; Romans 12:15; Luke 6:37)

In a world where we judge quickly and condemn harshly, we need to go back and sit in God’s love for us. Silently. Soak it in. Stare at our wretched attitudes, unworthy performances, and ridiculous arrogance and admit how unlovable we are, then revel in the exquisite tenderness with which God loves us still. We need to sit in that space for as long as it takes. Until we feel it in every part of our being. Then go share it. Actively look for opportunities to exhibit the love of God in human form, in ways that truly count. Be present. Sit in the space of mourning with them. Mourning sin. Mourning loss. Give comfort. Render aid. Speak words of compassion. Do acts of service. Help with housework, cooking, or childcare when unexpected illness strikes. Confidently pray God’s peace into the turmoil of their lives. Be available. No matter how far their fall from grace, how desperate their situation, how dark their circumstances. Sit in the ditch beside them. Gently clean their wounds. Kindly bandage the injuries inflicted on their hearts by the evil one. Constantly bathe their souls in the love of God with which you are so intimately acquainted. Be the love of God shining throughout the world. Indiscriminately. Continually. To everyone. Everywhere. No matter their age, race, religion, political affiliation, or sexual orientation. Allow the love of God that flows to every human being without discrimination, multiply and fill your heart so greatly that it overflows to every soul around you. Impact the world for Jesus by compassionately choosing to obediently love others, all others, as God has loved you. (Colossians 2:13; I Timothy 4:12; Romans 5:8; I John 4:7-8; John 4:19) 

Over the past two decades, our family has moved eight times. Interstate. Intrastate. East Coast to Pacific Northwest. Deep South to far North. Over the years of our travels, we have had the opportunity to live in several different homes. Newer homes. Older homes. Much older homes. We’ve rented more than once. We’ve also enjoyed the mixed blessing of being homeowners. It’s a goal most of us have. The hope of someday owning a home and living “the dream.” Whatever that dream may be. Unfortunately for those of us who have been blessed to achieve the goal, we have been met with the abrupt realization that the dream isn’t always what we think it is. Homeownership isn’t all back porch barbeques and front porch leisure. There’s a lot of work involved. Work you never think about when you simply pay the rent and rely on the landowner to take care of the upkeep. 

As a renter, you have the luxury of relaxing while someone else mows the lawn, weeds the planters, and does general maintenance. It’s their responsibility, not your concern. It is also their responsibility to handle your emergencies. Heating system glitch in the dead of winter? Call maintenance. Plumbing issues? Contact the office. Roof leaks in the middle of the night? Ring up the landlord. Don’t worry about the cost or whether it will get fixed. That isn’t your problem. The homeowner holds that responsibility. They have to call the insurance, hire professionals, find the answer, pay the bill. It’s quite simple, really. For the renter.  

Not so when you are the homeowner. When the tree falls on the roof in the middle of the night, the plumbing reverses into the shower rather than the drainfield, or the air conditioner blows hot instead of cool in triple-digit weather, the responsibility falls on you. When the yard needs mowed, the fence repaired, the siding has hail damage, that’s all you. When the termite inspection needs done, the siding needs power-washed, or the driveway needs repaved, guess who’s up? You. You have to mow the yard and fix the fence. You have to schedule the exterminator and hire a crew to clean your siding. You have to call the insurance company, wait for an adjuster, get a quote, find a repairman, and pay the deductible. You. You alone are responsible. And some homes are more susceptible to problems than others. Believe me, I know.

In the aftermath of the pandemic, when the housing market was at its most ridiculous, we purchased a 20-year-old property sight unseen. Yes. We knew it was risky. We knew it then. We know it now. It didn’t stop us. The previous owners had proudly designed and helped build the house. It looked wonderful on the outside. Beautiful, well-kept yard and gardens. Huge wrap-around porch. Fantastic fire pit. Coordinating paint job. It made a lovely picture nestled there in the valley surrounded by hay fields and barns. The sight hinted at peace and calm, a place of rest and security. Funny, isn’t it, how often looks are deceiving. 

Although the inside of the home had pretty wood floors and a lovely little sunroom, it was in desperate need of some upgrades. Obvious ones. We did them. Granite countertops in the tiny kitchen. Roller shades in the windows. New carpet in the bedrooms. Water-saving commodes. New heating and air conditioning system. We renovated and updated nearly every room in the house. And every time we did a renovation, we found an issue. The master washroom wall wasn’t plumb anymore. If it ever had been. The plumbing hadn’t been installed properly or with the proper number of vents. Some electrical work was questionable. And regular repairs had been done with obvious lack of care for accuracy or longevity. Previous poor repairs had to be righted before proper repairs could be done. Everything took twice as much work and double the time. It was exhausting. It seemed the only dependable thing about the house was the foundation. Never once did the house sink or the floorboards shift. No cracks appeared on the walls as evidence of a faulty foundation. No questions about its quality ever occurred to us. But even if the foundation was solid, the house standing on it didn’t always seem to be. 

The house hadn’t received the type of upkeep it should have had. Where the previous owners clearly took care of their outdoor lawn and gardens, berry patch, and hay field, they hadn’t been as fastidious indoors. Inside, window sills were loose and casings ill-fitted, allowing air to flow around them. Mold was discovered in the attic. Unsealed openings around pipes welcomed rodents. Unfinished floorboards put splinters in feet. And a safety railing was missing from the side of the stairs. We’d never have guessed it by looking at the outside. But it was there. Lurking on the inside. Ruining the safety of the house. Damaging it from the inside out. Making it more of a shambles than a home. Because somewhere along the way, the owners had become negligent concerning the upkeep of the house.

I get it. I do. It is easy to put off repairs that aren’t immediately threatening life or limb. The fun factor is low. The funding often high. They still have to be done. Internal upkeep of your home is as important as external manicuring of your property. And it’s not only true for the physical house you inhabit. It is also true of your spiritual house, the inner part of you that no one else can see. The part that is easy to let slide so long as you keep the outside looking good, use all the right words, attend church regularly, and raise your hands at the right part of every song. The inner part of you that is so easy to ignore in the busyness of life. The part that isn’t fun to evaluate. The part that costs to tend, but will cost far more if you don’t. The part on which your eternity rests.

The wise writer of Ecclesiastes penned words of warning about those who are lazy and neglect to care for their houses. He says those structures will come to disrepair, leak, and fall in. His meaning is echoed in the New Testament parable of Jesus as He tells of a property owner who was preparing to go on a journey. Calling his three servants to him, he entrusted each of them with a specific amount of money according to what he felt was within their ability to handle. Then he left on his trip. The servant who had received the most money went off and turned that money into twice its original amount. The second servant did the same. The third servant didn’t. He didn’t even try. Instead, he buried his singular allotment in the ground and waited for the man to return from his trip. (Ecclesiastes 10:18)

Eventually, the owner came back to reclaim his money. The first man confidently returned his allotment and the interest it had gained. The second man followed suit. Both were handsomely rewarded. Then the third man approached the owner. In his hand he carried a filthy, rotting sack with one tiny coin at the bottom. The same coin he’d been given so long ago. He was full of excuses. He was scared. He wasn’t sure what to do with it. He was distracted by other pressing matters. In the aftermath of the owner being gone and all the duties he had to do, he had failed to retrieve the coin and do something profitable with it.  

Rarely had the servant seen rage like that now crossing the owner’s face. Red, hot, menacing anger seethed from his eyes and spewed out his mouth. With everything the servant knew about him, with all his obvious exacting standards, the servant had done nothing with his money?! He’d left it to rot in the ground, to be found by anyone who happened along, to be lost, forgotten, gone forever? Not only had the servant not tended the money properly, making more with the little he had been given, he had been careless and negligent with it. His laziness spoke more than his words ever could. He wasn’t responsible enough to look after the owner’s possessions. If left to him alone, the entire estate would have fallen down around his ears. The same can be said for the lazy and negligent of soul. (Matthew 25:14-30)

You see, friend, it takes work to keep your spiritual house in order. No matter how firm the foundation of Jesus Christ, there can be no relationship, no growth, no strengthening without effort. Your soul will flounder and fail without constant, daily communication with God. So read your Bible. Alone. The actual Bible. Not a book about the Bible (although they have their place). Read the Word of God for yourself. His words. To you. Listen as He reveals His words and His will to you. That’s why the Bible was written. So you could know God. Not just about Him. Know Him. Personally. Intimately. Have a relationship with Him. Build your life, your beliefs, your convictions in Him and on His Word. Examine your heart, your soul by the Word of God. Allow it to pierce any part of you that is hardened from neglect and clean up the parts that are in disrepair from spiritual laziness. Pray. Talk to God. Regularly. Take time to listen. Sit in silence before God. Hear His voice. Know His nudging. Familiarize yourself with His Spirit working in and around you. Clean up your act. Take care of your house. Build your soul on a firm foundation, and do the upkeep to stay there. (Ephesians 6:11-12; Matthew 26:41; I Thessalonians 5:17; Psalm 119:105; II Corinthians 13:5)

Admittedly, that is the difficult part. The upkeep. The daily, weekly, and monthly consistency of abiding in Christ. When everything is the same day after day. When nothing miraculous breaks up the monotony. When something worldly glistens, catches your eye, and tempts you to turn aside, to leave the responsibilities of caring for your spiritual house for just a little while. When you are tired and worn and weary. When your energy is low and your anxiety is high. Forcing yourself to be on guard and keep your soul solid is sometimes the hardest thing you will do. Especially with all of the distractions of our day. Everywhere we turn, there is something begging for our attention. Our phones are constantly pinging. Our schedules are always demanding. Our souls are frequently smothered as we attempt to keep up with the earthly at the expense of the eternal. We become negligent saints. Lazy Christians. And if we aren’t careful, our spiritual houses will collapse without great care to keep them solid. (Galatians 6:9; John 15:4-5)

In a ringing warning, the writer of Proverbs says those who slack off are negligent, who allow laziness to crowd their souls will suffer the consequences. Their house and grounds will come to ruin. Spiritually, they will be overcome by evil. Those who are idle, lazy, negligent about the keeping of their spiritual house fall prey to sin. Easily. They are drawn aside by the lusts of their own hearts that become prominent when the preeminence of Jesus Christ is smothered. So take care of your house. Do the upkeep. Consistently. Meticulously. Keep your soul from evil. Words. Thoughts. Actions. Guard your heart with vigilance and care. Don’t let laziness or negligence spoil your soul and steal your reward. Take the time. Make the effort. Put in the work to make your soul solid, your eternity secure. (Proverbs 4:23, 24:30-34; Romans 12:9-21; Thessalonians 3:10-12; Luke 6:45; Colossians 3:2; I Peter 5:8; James 1:14)

Silent tears ran in rivulets down faces of young and old alike as the words of the edict sliced through the air. Panic tightened their throats. Terror struck their hearts. Numb minds desperately tried to make sense of what they had just heard. The day of their death had been appointed. Circled on the calendar. Meticulously staged in intricate detail. Rubber stamped by King Ahasuerus. It caught them by surprise. So did the verbiage. It reeked with hate and evil. Destroy. Kill. Annihilate. All. Every single Jew in every single part of the kingdom was destined for death. In the city. In the country. No one was safe. Infants and aged. Male and female. Wimp and warrior. All were to be slaughtered. With no provocation, no insurrection, no discord, the date of their death had been carefully scheduled. What, exactly, were they supposed to do now? 

Hearing the news of impending doom, Mordecai went into mourning. For himself. For his people. He tore his clothes, donned sackcloth, piled ashes on his head, and walked through the city to the King’s Gate. He couldn’t go further. It wasn’t allowed. No sackcloth could go beyond that point. It was fine with him. Joining the mourning of his people, Mordecai took up his post in the city square. Loudly and bitterly, he wept over their impending doom, uniting with his people scattered throughout the kingdom in fasting and prayer, begging God for help and deliverance. He wasn’t certain from where it would come, but he had an idea. They had someone on the inside for exactly a moment like this.

Tucked up inside the palace, wholly unaware of the fear enveloping her people, sat Esther. Clearly, the king had been more concerned with looks than lineage. He didn’t even know he had signed her death warrant. Had no idea about her family heritage. Didn’t know whom he’d crowned queen. But Mordecai knew. She was the reason he spent so much time outside the palace. King Ahasuerus’ chosen queen was the same young lady Mordecai had raised as his own daughter. He worried about her. Feared for her safety. Wondered how she was getting along. So he stayed close. Often. Esther’s handlers knew him. Her female servants. Her eunuchs. Everyone close to her recognized him. When they heard and saw the scene he was making out front, it was immediately reported to Esther. She needed to know. Needed to do something. Needed to make it stop. 

Sending out a change of clothes, Esther attempted to get Mordecai to put on respectable garb that would enable him to come closer so they could have a discussion. He refused. The situation was too grave to allow him to leave off his mourning without resolution. Undeterred by his refusal, Esther sent a eunuch to uncover what Mordecai was doing and why. She wasn’t expecting the answer she got. Destroy. Kill. Annihilate. All the Jews. Abused and enslaved as they had often been, not once had she thought the lives of her people would be valued in silver for the king’s treasury and signed over to slaughter. No matter how many times she read the decree, she couldn’t comprehend the impetus behind it. Nor could she stop the anxiety clawing its way through her stomach at the terrifying demand of Mordecai. Go petition the king to save her people.  

It was a ridiculous command. Esther hadn’t seen the king in a month. He hadn’t summoned her, and she certainly wasn’t going in without his request. She didn’t have a death wish. She couldn’t be certain he would raise that golden scepter of his, sparing her life. So she stayed to her duties. Tended her business. Obeyed the rules. Now Mordecai was asking her to break the mold. Change things up. Step out in faith for her people. Clearly, God had placed her in a prestigious position at a pivotal time to do His imperative work for the miraculous rescue of His people.

 Mordecai knew it. Believed it. If there was any hope for the Jewish people residing in Susa and its surrounding areas, Esther was it. God wasn’t sleeping when she was chosen as queen. He was busy. Planning. Protecting. Providing. Mordecai believed it. And he wasn’t buying Esther’s excuses. She needed to go talk to the king. Plead for them. For her people. For herself. Those palace walls weren’t going to save her. Whether or not Haman or King Ahasuerus knew her background, someone was bound to realize Esther was a Jew. They would come for her. She would not escape. The risk of approaching the king uninvited was not greater than the threat to her own life if she didn’t. God would find another avenue of rescue for His people, but Esther wouldn’t be included. This was her moment to act.  

Challenged and encouraged by Mordecai, Esther opted in. No matter how fearful she felt. Regardless of how hopeless the situation. No matter how helpless she felt. She would go in to see the king. Plead their cause. But she wasn’t going in directly. Not today. Not even tomorrow. She had some requirements. Everyone, from those in the far reaches of the city to the maids at her side, must fast and pray for three days. Pray for God to help them. Direct them. Deliver them. Pray for courage and strength to fulfill her duty. Pray for wisdom as she chose her words. Pray that the king’s heart would be softened toward her so he would allow her an audience. Pray that God would go before her and make a way where none seemed to be. 

People across Susa were already doing that. Praying. It was the only thing God’s people could do. Sitting in their own fear and helplessness. Stuck in the waiting. Searching for answers and help, and hope. Seeing human powers at work against them and being forced to admit their impotence. All they could do was cry out to God for a rescue, bombard Heaven for deliverance, pray that the king’s heart would be directed by God like water flowing through a channel. Because, stuck in a space where evil runs rampant and there appears to be nothing the righteous can do to alter the impending chain of horrific events, God’s people have one option. Pray. (Esther 3-4; Proverbs 21:1)

It worked for Esther and her people. At the sight of his queen in the doorway, the king readily lifted his golden scepter. He accepted her invitations–for both himself and Haman. He heard her story and believed her words. He destroyed their enemy and issued a second decree mitigating the first. Not because Esther was beautiful or biddable. Not out of imagined duty to his queen. Not to save face or secure slaves to work in his kingdom. No. King Ahasuerus acted in their favor because Esther and her people prayed. And God worked. (Esther 5,7) 

Centuries later, surrounded as we are by a deluge of unfortunate events, unmitigated evil, unharnessed hate, it is so easy to look around in helplessness and fear and wonder what we can do about it. What can we do to turn a country actively fleeing righteousness back to God? What can we do to stop hate in the world? What can the tiny number of righteous do to triumph over the tidal wave of wickedness surging over our society? It feels like nothing. Nothing we can do or say, teach or live seems to have any effect on the burgeoning bent toward evil around us. Acknowledging our impotence and falling victim to our fears, we helplessly shake our heads and ponder the question, “What can the righteous do?” In this day, at this hour, in the middle of these out-of-control circumstances, what can the righteous do to restore order, offer hope, render aid? (Psalm 11:3; II Chronicles 20:12; Habakkuk 1:4; Micah 7:2-4; I Timothy 4:1-2; II Timothy 3:1-5; Colossians 4:2; Jeremiah 29:12)

Friend, there is so much you can do. You can do everything. Without getting out of your chair. Without leaving your house. Without opening your computer or making a post. You can pray. Pray when the answers don’t happen. Pray when the news leaves you anxious, terrified, horrified. Pray when everything seems hopeless. Pray when things are on the upturn. Pray when they go downhill. Pray whether the outlook is bright or threatening. Pray in the car, the shower, the front yard. No matter where you are or what you are doing, don’t stop praying. Because, in times of trouble and trial and terror, when there is nothing left in the silly little arsenal of human machinations, the righteous don’t get discouraged or wander aimlessly about asking what they can do. No. The righteous pray. And God works. (James 5:16; I Thessalonians 5:7; Romans 12:12; Luke 18:1; Philippians 4;6-7; I Peter 3:12; Proverbs 15:29; Ezra 8:23)